Hello Highly Sensitive Souls, It’s been a long time since I have posted due to quite an amazing rollercoaster ride of ups and downs in my life. I’m 63 now and oh boy now feeling even wiser since I posted here regularly. This blog was started in January 2010. I didn’t realize until later that that was the start of an amazing decade literally on January 1 of that decade. Now I’m seeing the magic in so many serendipitous moments in my life that seem “meant to be”. This is because I feel they prepared me for challenges ahead.

Now my journey as a lightworker helping others with my gifts of high sensitivity, empathic intuition, energy healing, and healing songs has added some new key subjects to what was the main theme here on this blog–which was healing from childhood wounds from a narcissistic parent or traumatic childhood. I believe if you are a highly sensitive soul and your soul chose this very difficult path in your formative years in your current life then you are quite a BADASS powerful old soul with great potential to heal yourself and help others heal too! And now you might be experiencing other challenges in life and possibly feeling Oh Boy I don’t know if I am strong enough. If you resonate with this then you may be in the right place reading here.

I am going through extreme personal challenges at the moment in life and I know that writing with the intention of supporting other highly sensitive souls will be healing for me and others. It boggles my mind as to where to start to share… but I realize I’ve grown a lot over the recent years and my inner voice is strong with self compassion. I hope you that are reading here know that I’ve always said that “Self-compassion is rule number 1” on this blog and it still reigns true. And I trust that I will “know” just what to share as I am always being guided by my spirit team of guides and angels. Remember, you have spirit guides and angels helping you too. Yes, that’s right–it’s true. You must ask for their guidance or they can’t help.

Since 2018 I have been a channel and an intuitive and I communicate with the higher spiritual realms in my journaling almost daily except when my health problems make it difficult to relax enough to connect to receive the heavenly messages. I have come to understand that these health problems I am experiencing are happening for a purpose. These health problems are temporary. These health problems are powerful teachers about energy blockages and transmuting fear and how to regain the flow of positivity and shining the light of our true essence which is pure love. Learning how to stay positive is easier said than done yes! Can we do it? Yes we can!!

Long story short, here is what is going on: The wonderful 6 year old house in Florida that my husband and I bought and moved into in October 2022 had toxic black mold hidden in the attic and HVAC system and under the showers. I had found a beautiful office in town for my energy work and life coaching but I was too ill to go there to work. My husband used it since he could work remotely and I stayed at “home” trying to recover. It took me over 1 1/2 years of having brain fog, chronic fatigue, intestinal problems, and stress intolerance and a host of other weird symptoms until I was guided to a doctor that finally figured it out! 😇🙏 A mycotoxin test revealed I had 5 times the threshold of mold toxicity in my body. This functional medicine doctor said only 25% of people get ill from mold which explained why my husband felt fine and I was incapacitated. So we had the house tested for mycotoxins and, yes, it was proven that black mold was heavily in the air handler and a significant but lesser extent hidden under both showers. 

My mold illness was discovered in June of 2024. I moved out and into a hotel in July 2024 per my doctors orders and immediately I started feeling better slowly. By then it had affected my brain so much that I couldn’t park the car straight anymore and my eyesight had got worse to mention just a few things. 1 month turned into 3 1/2 months that I had to live in the hotel while the HVAC and ducts were torn out, showers torn out and the mold remediated and our home retested. Meanwhile everything we owned needed to be wiped off thoroughly with antibacterial wipes and mold spray, and the porous objects including couch and mattresses discarded. Clothing could be washed in hot water with a mold killer additive. We had movers come and move everything we own, except hard wood furniture, into climate controlled storage. A new HVAC system and showers were rebuilt and it took several months. 

It was an extremely stressful summer and fall but I had high hopes to recover fully from the mold illness little by little—I was slowly getting my joy back and starting to feel like myself again. But then hurricane Milton in October 2024 halted all work on the house. We evacuated the area and helped my son evacuate and on the wee hours of the first night at the new hotel his beloved cat almost died from a urinary blockage among other stressful things that happened one after the other. My stress level that week was through the roof! Due to the extreme stress of that week a large lump in my abdomen had grown and the following week I could feel it. I got it examined right away by a new integrative doctor I was guided to and had an MRI by thanksgiving and surgery to remove it by Dec. 27. Thank goodness my lovely grown kids were visiting for Christmas at that time and were so helpful and supportive. 

I awoke from surgery grateful to have the 7 inch diameter ovarian cyst (16cm) removed successfully that had been putting pressure on my kidneys. The good news was the oncologist surgeon got it all!—They found cancer in the cyst and it was caught early. It had not spread except a tiny bit to the peritoneum but the surgeon got that out too! But because it had spread at all it was called Ovarian Cancer Stage 2 B. The focus was on how fortunate I was and this gratefulness carried me through the painful recovery of a complete hysterectomy and a 7 inch vertical scar from the laparotomy. The oncologist surgeon recommended chemotherapy every 3 weeks for 6 times so that it never comes back. Stunned but grateful I knew, yes I’m gonna do that. I stayed positive just like I did throughout finding the lump—I had felt strongly it was benign and stayed fearless as I waited for surgery. I have felt comfort, guidance, and protection from my guides and angels each step of the way. It’s been quite a shock to process that I have a cancer diagnosis. I never dreamed with my holistic mindfulness and healthy healing habits that this could happen to me. I feel strongly that the surgery got all of the cancer. I am not allowing fear to feed any remaining abnormal cells in my body. My new doctor agrees and it turns out he is spiritually like-minded–I am grateful to be in great hands.

I truly believe if it weren’t for the stress of the toxic black mold situation I would not have this cancer diagnosis. I’m actually feeling very blessed that the extra sudden stress then caused it to grow large enough quickly for me to notice and take action to get it removed. What a blessing! It could have stayed hidden and slowly spread. But it didn’t. And then it stayed the same size from Oct until Dec 27 when it was removed. Little miracles are keeping me in a high vibe of positivity. 

Over the summer while in the hotel I had sauna treatments and took binder supplements that removed the mold toxins and I have felt better now than since we moved here. My ability to think and sing and write songs started coming back in November and now I have my happiness back and the dreadful mold illness is behind me! The toxic mold stole my joy and creative desires and energy healing abilities–it was like my true essence was slowly disappearing. Luckily our house and my hotel near our home were not damaged in the hurricane. The workers continued the mold remediation and renovation immediately after the hurricane. I was blessed to find someone I trusted to wipe down the walls, ceilings and floors of our home. I could finally move back home after we retested to make sure the mold levels were safe.

Yes I was shocked at this cancer diagnosis but I feel so hopeful because the stress of the mold issue is now gone, the house is now a mold free sanctuary, and the showers are beautiful—finished on November 21st. I’m in a great place now to be healing completely, with a great support system, and looking forward to getting back to my work helping others. There is so much fear about cancer in the world and I believe that this fear really does make cancer worse. What I do is I acknowledge the fear and then shift it to the belief in hope and being cancer free.

The thing about the work that I do is understanding that everything is energy and getting positive energy flowing in the body is important for optimum healing. Mold made it impossible for me to flow positively in my sacral chakra (which is the center for creativity!) but now my energy is flowing positively daily. I’m working with an integrative doctor who happens to be an alternative cancer specialist who is helping me to detox the chemicals from the traditional route of chemotherapy. I didn’t know he was a cancer specialist when I first went to him–how amazing is that! So I’m doing both routes of treatment–holistic and traditional. So please know things are very hopeful for me! If you are experiencing a cancer diagnosis or mold illness worries I welcome your comments–through sharing our journeys we can help each other and others. I’m sending all of you warm healing wishes of love and light, comfort, and freedom from fear. Love is the opposite of fear and you are so loved by the Universe/God and your guides and angels. I’m here to help you get the messages of HOPE. I hope that by sharing my story I can help others to have hope. There are so many details that I glossed over in order to make this post a reasonable length. I welcome any questions so that I can clarify or help. Thank you for reading and I’ll be posting again when I can throughout my chemotherapy journey ahead to living cancer free. Welcome to our community that is a safe haven of hope and healing for highly sensitive souls.

Peace and Love, 

Roxanne 💖