In a variety of different posts, I have shared some of my poems and healing writings. These writings are taken directly from my personal journal. Here on this new page I am copying them all in one spot so my readers can have easier access to them.
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Wise Inner Child and Wings and Things
By Roxanne E. Smith
Oct. 1, 2015
Painful layers coming up
Anger, grief and other stuff
I thought all of this was healed
No there’s more! It is revealed!
Inner child inside can now
Tell the truth—feels safe somehow
I will comfort her brave heart
Out of hiding, let her start
To spread her fragile angel wings
Never used before it seems…
Whoa!! She’s ready! Knows they’re real!
Says, “Yeah, I’ve got wings! It’s no big deal!”
No more hiding them from sight
Imagining her very first flight
I’m the one who kept her down
Protecting her from scorn or frown
She tells me to open the door
“Look” she says, “what wings are for!”
Flying easy as the breeze,
she hovers anywhere she please
Surprised that I am still afraid
She takes MY hand and says, “Let’s trade!
“You be me and I’ll be you.”
“Did you know you have wings too!?”
I look behind and see them there
Tucked away with so much care
Hidden just beneath my sight
I didn’t know I had the right!
“I’ve been busy protecting you
and now I see I’ve got wings too!
I am scared to try them out.
It’s been so long I’ve gone without
How to switch to this new change
It feels so shameful and I feel strange!”
Wise child says,
“You know where that’s from?
Others shamed you because they had none.
No wings to fly wherever they want
So they put you down to stay up front.
But now you know the truth down deep
You learned from all the lessons reaped
Deep inside you know your soul
Has learned more love through the life school
Many lives you’ve lived and learned
About compassion and now’s your turn
You’re here to be a beacon light
Fly and shine on others bright
You know you do this anyway
But you’ve got wings so fly and play
Fly and play don’t toil and fret!
You’re sensitive but the strongest yet!
Now you get to do your thing!
Love and shine and fly and sing!
That’s all that’s it and now you know!”
The little child then hugged me so
“I love you and I’m always here
I’m your inner strength—no longer fear
You protected me ‘til I was strong
Now I help you to get along
Just like with the Butterfly
The caterpillar is gone goodbye!
Brave new woman with golden wings
Stand your ground and fly and sing
Tell about your growth to show
Others who also do not know
That they have hidden wings as well
They earned them too but they can’t tell
Not until they are really SEEN
For the first time since they were teens
They tried to fly but soon were stopped
And painfully their wings were cropped
But they grew back and have been ready
Until the self was loved and steady
Grounded in peace—no longer fear
You’re free to fly away my dears!
So lighten your house and ease your load
Because the next chapter’s seeds are sowed
Freedom is what will grow
and life will have a different flow
Peace and love will soothe your soul
So you can sing some rock’n’roll
Giving hope to others through
Sharing what you love to do
Then they’ll believe in their own soul
And all the world will heal to whole!”
The child then smiled and said, “Okay?!”
Then held my hand and we flew away!!
Original Poem © 2015 Roxanne Elaine Smith
From my soul I’ll speak of the trail
Left behind years ago
Still persisting feelings of woe:
When children are treated
as objects to control
The fear in their hearts
and stress takes a toll
You may be proud
your child is obedient
But when children fear you
The damage is immediate
But they do not feel it
‘til years have gone by
They survive it by numbing
Their feelings inside
And then when they search
For their dreams and then find them
The fear and the guilt
Come up to surprise them
They are happy so the feelings
Come up then to heal.
Surprise! Here I am!
And we say “Why are you here?
I was feeling so happy
and finally free
Now guilt, shame, and doubt
Are now plaguing me”
But don’t give up hope
It’s a really good thing
Reassure your inner child
Your soul can still sing
But right now you must comfort
The child inside
The child who gave up
With noone on their side
‘It’s gonna be all right
I’m here for you now”
Be there for your self
Grief you must allow
Grieve for the childhood
That you didn’t get
Grieve out the pain
For the terror you met
You needed your parents
Approval to survive
So you gave up your dreams
And your parents then thrived
But what about you
Admit it’s not fair
They used you for their needs
As if your needs weren’t there
So you pushed down your needs
Far deep down inside
Your needs are still there
Still needing to cry
They need to be voiced
They need to be heard
Once you then do this
You’re free as a bird
Until the next time-I know
It doesn’t seem fair
This process of healing
So painful to bear
Pain keeps coming up
Just when things seem so good
There are layers arising
To heal when they should
Don’t see it as a sign that
You’ve done something wrong
It means things are great
And you are getting strong!
Strong enough to get through it
Face the truth in the pain
You didn’t deserve it!
You are not to blame!
And you are worth the effort
You’re a sensitive soul
Special and gifted
You have a new role
It’s caregiver, friend
Enlightened and free
You inspire others
To live joyfully
To see all the positive
Things in this life
To turn around negatives
And end all the strife
Because now you know
no matter what’s going on
You can get through it
Your True Self is strong!
It was hidden but survived
Until the days you were strong
Now let out the pain
To deny it is wrong
It happened–it killed you
So wounded inside
But you can recover
Your feelings that hide
And then you feel better
You’ll feel much relief
Be proud of your self
You got through the grief
You relearn to trust
There are people who are kind
The ones who control
They can just…never mind!!
Set your sights on the people
Who are trying to heal
Who admit they’re in pain
And just want to feel
You can help them
‘cause of what you’ve been through
We are here to help each other
Don’t you think that is true?
So you see it’s okay
This up and down track
Some days you are happy
Other days pain comes back
Be kind to yourself
You’ve done well and it’s fine
On days when you’re anxious
Take it easy on your mind
Don’t think so much
All those negative thoughts
Replace them with comfort
And love yourself lots!
Every child deserves
To be cherished as they are
Not molded to be…
Control leaves such a scar
And all that can heal
If you give yourself love
Be patient and rest
You’ve been working so hard
Then everything will be
All right you will see
Your soul deserves freedom
Take it from me
I’ve been there too
Now I finally love me!
Click here to see this poem in it’s original post with comments=>https://hopehealing.wordpress.com/2010/03/01/from-the-heart-of-an-obedient-child-the-painful-legacy-left-behind/
NOW Is A Good Time
By Roxanne Smith
Feb. 18, 2013
NOW’s a good time to nurture yourself and your feelings
To release the past and all painful dealings.
The pain’s coming up NOW so you’ll see the truth
of how you weren’t seen and loved in your youth.
The child inside, he or she yearns to be free.
The pain is just blocking your feelings of glee.
Joy and great gladness are all waiting there.
Waiting until you feel the truth and despair.
What happened to you was awful and sick
The pain you repressed was unbearable and thick.
You were too small and dependent back then
but now you are safe so the wounds can open
and your soul wants to heal these wounds from within.
You cannot move higher until you tell the truth of your kin.
How they poked you and pulled you down each time you succeeded
’til you gave up and blamed yourself… but they weren’t what you needed.
You were a bright star with a higher energy.
They were jealous and threatened by your desire to be free.
So you hid your true self until a much safer time–
It’s safe NOW so your soul is crying out as a sign
to be kind to your inner child who is coming out—please allow!
Don’t beat yourself up for feeling bad NOW.
Because you’re rising up from patterns ingrained in your head.
New ways of being are in your soul, time to shed
all the old pain, it must be felt to be released.
It is gone forever once you see the danger has ceased.
The danger was real then, don’t ever forget it
but now you choose new friends who are not like your inner critic.
You are learning your true self is a compassionate soul
who is kind to others and that is your role.
So being kind to your self is the very first step.
All day everyday you must give yourself pep!
Don’t listen to your inner critic—it is wrong and so mean
like those who abused you and weren’t nice as they seem.
You deserved better and NOW you must give it to your soul.
The more you are kind, the more you’ll feel Whole!
Each layer of pain will dissolve as you express
all of your confusion and unhappiness.
How could this be… you thought: “I was bad and wrong”
but really blaming “YOU” was unfair all along.
You were a bright light never harming a flea–
so easy to control because you trusted completely.
I hope you can see that you can reframe your past.
Replace those mean moments with self-love that will last.
Accepting Love from Above will change your beliefs about your core.
Who you are YOU must love so your dreams can then soar!
You are gifted and brilliant, a gift to us all.
You are treasured by those others who also feel this call.
The call’s mixed with pain and feeling bad about your childhood.
When you change your beliefs you will see your soul’s all Good!
Then you can reconnect with your self and find creativity and fun.
You’ll learn to relax and recharge from the sun.
Learn to listen to your body instead of working too hard.
You’ll get lots more done when you “play” in your yard.
Allowing yourself to enjoy being you
will slow you down and allow the pain to come through.
After a good cry, each time you’ll feel better–
lighter and lighter ‘til you’re light as a feather.
And allowing yourself to have space that is yours—
new boundaries to protect yourself will help open doors.
You must learn to feel grounded and connected to the earth.
This will help you feel solid and put yourself first.
You deserve to be happy and that starts with self-care.
After you are grounded, then you will become aware
that lifting up others is your gift and your purpose
and there’s a billion others out there who are not just kind on the surface.
They are deep and compassionate—you are not alone.
We are healing together as we feel grace and atone.
We did our best with all that we have known.
NOW we know it’s okay to be angry, then let it go.
Don’t hold onto blame, but blame needs to be spoken.
Release it and move on—don’t yell at the broken.
You are higher than they are (those who brought you down).
You don’t need to punish—you can just leave town
to start a new life and create all that your dreams can arrange.
Move forward… not fixing those who don’t want to change.
Trust these new feelings that spark in your heart.
Healing is painful but that’s only part.
This feeling’s inside that you’re finally alive!
Keep going with following your passions inside.
Don’t compare yourself to others—you have a new gig!
Let desires be your guide and your success will be BIG.
If you do this and trust your intuition inside
your internal guidance will help you to thrive.
Sometimes you’ll get stuck so you’ll need to be kind
to yourself when you inner critic starts messing with you mind.
Drop down to your heart instead of your head.
If you need to cry about something that was said,
grieve for this loss, the wrong path where you were led.
It hurt you so much, childhood pain must be shed
so we can see, that NOW we’re safe and free
And we would have parented differently
And that’s good you are different and unique and that’s great!
I hope you can see that it’s never too late.
We often must go backward to move forward to be free.
You can heal and find wholeness—take it from me!
I found here a community of souls who relate–
I share how I healed and how sensitivity is great!
By journaling out the pain, I had new eyes to see.
My true voice was found, then my true self was free!
I know it sounds simple but it took a long time.
Try to trust in your feelings, then all will be fine.
As I followed my pain I got signs from above:
“relax and enjoy” and best “You are loved!”
I know of your pain– I know just how you feel.
It happened to me and I learned how to heal
So NOW as you journey from wounded to whole
I hope that these words will comfort your soul.
Joy, Our Birthright, Waiting There
By Roxanne Smith
Feb 21, 2007
Telling someone helped me heal
All the pain inside was real
No wonder I had been so tired
My whole heart had been so mired
So much grief to lead the way
Let it out, so much to say
I was never there for you
The way I thought I was, it’s true
Because I was empty – none to give
Alive but I just now learned to live
Soulful is the proper word
I have “me” – it sounds absurd
Let your painful feelings out
You can’t be whole and live without
Expression of unfairness do
Your soul will help you live anew
And learn compassion for your self
Don’t put feelings on a shelf
Any doubt is harmful thought
The truth is–look how far you got!
Negativity and blocks
To true self and joyful shocks
Being blamed can stunt our growth
Fear of feelings: anger, both
Also fearing joy and bliss
Pain comes up and we all miss
The connection to our rightful heir
Joy, our birthright, waiting there!
Love is what we all deserve
Joy it feels when then observed
Share it then and it comes back
Filling up the past we lacked
Helping others heal their wounds
Nothing like it – glowing moons
Stars are twinkling, warming sun
Nature loves us one by one
Let the love come down on you
It is there don’t block the view
Doubts of self will keep it blocked
You must trust your soul’l be rocked!
With this truth I’m trying to tell
Creative soul fear-blocked is hell
Heaven is a word away
Love is here please let it stay
You deserve its welcome home
Inside you it does belong
Love yourself I’m trying to say
God is trying – just light the way
Ask him to comfort your soul
Believe! And he will rock and roll!
I’m not kidding this I know
I let out grief and felt a glow
A light inside I did believe
I’m OK. I feel. I grieve.
Compulsions all have fear beneath
God has no shoulds or work hard teeth
Be yourself and kindness do
Serve to help others heal anew
Help them see that love transcends
We can all relax and mend
“Relax and enjoy your life
and everything will be alright!”
This phrase came in a dream so real
I hope this poem will help you heal
Click here to see this poem in it’s original post with comments=>https://hopehealing.wordpress.com/2010/10/12/october-12-2010-journaling-for-joy-and-finding-my-true-voice-in-a-poem/
Poem of Hope and Healing for the Highly Sensitive Survivor
By Roxanne Smith
March 22, 2011
Pain so deep, I can’t see the light
I know it’s there but it’s not very bright
The sadness is thick, despair all around
I envision a child giving up with no sound
Pain so deep, I hide all my hope
Afraid to come out, I feel like a dope
Worthless and horrible, don’t ever try
The pain is unbearable, can’t even cry
I can’t feel the love, I need it so bad!
So much fear without it, it’s really so sad!’
I am feeling much better just admitting this truth
You have to have love when you’re in your youth!
Without love you can’t heal all the hurts that come by
When bad things do happen we need love when we cry
Someone has to hold us and give us new hope
If there’s no one for comfort than there’s no way to cope
No wonder I hid my talents away
When I would do well then I was their prey
The taunting, the teasing, “Who do you think you are?”
Shame became my deepest scar
But who was this child all hidden in shame
An innocent victim who will never be the same?
She thinks she is nothing but she is so wrong
The truth is she’s beautiful, wise, and so strong
Scoop up that child all broken and battered
Love her and hug her and tell her she matters
She’s awesome and wonderful, they were so wrong
Talented, creative , and smart all along
Sensitive soul you were so beaten down
But you figured it out and now you can leave town
You’re safe now and free–no more bullies outside
Shine your light, spread your wings, don’t believe all the lies
Be kind to yourself when the pain comes back ’round
Love yourself through it, your true self is found
You know the truth and now you can be free
Fear is from “them”–in the past, don’t you see?
Relax into the pain and it will dissipate
Because the pain is from lies and it’s never too late!
To believe in yourself and your talents and dreams
You are good at compassion and so many things
They did not want you to succeed with your gifts
So they made you give up and they threatened with fists
You were small so you gave up but now you are grown
You can heal all the pain and make it now on your own
You can do it!–the words you’ve long waited to hear
Say them to your self! And say NO to the fear!
Give them back all the bad feelings that they gave to you
Imagine this energy going outward from you
Then let in the light and the love from a place
Where angels don’t want you to live in disgrace
You know what love is because you give it so freely
To others who need it when they’re feeling needy
Give to your self all this love all the time!
You will find your true purpose and all will be fine
These lessons are so hard that we learn from our pain
But we discover our strengths again and again
So sensitive souls who survived from abuse
Your gifts are so needed to be put to good use
I know how you feel and I hope you feel better
Because we can overcome it if we do it together!
I hope that this poem has helped you to feel loved
You are!–and I send it to you from above!
I understand and I want to comfort your pain
I hope this is helpful. Love, Roxanne Elaine