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I Was Lost But Now I’ve Found Me

Hello Everyone!ย  Happy New Year, Everyone! Happy New Decade! Yay 2020!!! I hope you are doing well.ย  I hope you find hope in my sharing my journey of feeling lost to feeling found. I understand, I care, and I found ways to heal that perhaps can help you too.

 

10 years ago today I started this blog!ย  It was a new beginning for me as the blog helped me to find my voice as a writer; as a coach, mentor, and spiritual counselor for other highly sensitive souls and empaths with childhood wounds; and just …as a person, a soul, a human being on the planet! I did not realize I had started my blog at the beginning of a decade! I did not realize until yesterday how serendipitous and special it is that I started my blog at the beginning of the previous Decade!ย  Wow exactly 10 years ago! I was 48 then and felt kind of old and yet unaccomplished and green.ย  I am 58 now and I feel younger than I did at 48 …and in fact younger and happier than when I was in my 30s!ย  2020 vision and clarity is ahead for us all–a new hopeful path is emerging before our very eyes! I invite you to get out your journal or think back to january 2010 and look at how far you have come.ย  Please share your healing journey in the comments belowย  or if you resonate with realizing you started some positive changes or awarenesses in your life in 2010.

 

one whole decade

 

I found my true soul’s purpose as a result of writing this blog and an ability to express myself that had long been hidden inside me. When I started I had no idea how importantly the work I did on this blog would impact my life. I remember thinking, if I could just help one other person with what I’ve learned on my journey then this blog would be a success. Such a valuable thing to learn I think because I had low expectations so when the blog gained momentum and had lots of engagement it gave me so much confidence! The success of beginning my career as a life coach on the blog lead me to following my intuition and trusting my own inner guidance at deeper and deeper levels.

I was helping others through sharing my journey through a pen name at first–using my middle name, I was known as Elaine back then. At the height of my coaching career, I then started writing more and more songs, going to open mic nights, met musician friends in my area, and overcame my terrifying fear of singing alone on stage in public. I started performing around Indianapolis and getting paid for it and made an album of original songs that is on all the Worldwide music platforms such as iTunes, Spotify, and Amazon.

While I deeply loved my blog, my coaching and my clients, my heart was torn in 2 directions. I realized I had to put all my songs under my legal name and until then they had been divided–half were songs about inner child healing under the name of Elaine. When I changed my name on the blog and stopped writing as regularly, the blog audience changed and grew as I changed and grew. Even when I didn’t write for a few years on this blog, the old posts continued to get readers and new followers and I continued to get emails from grateful sensitive souls who felt their childhood wounds had been “seen” and their inner feelings “voiced”.

My journey took a spiritual turn as the intuitive abilities helped me realize many of my songs and blog posts had been “channeled” by me–I realized I was co-creating with the help of my higher self. My soul’s purpose grew to include being an energy healer, and the training and certification I received as a Reiki Practitioner in 2012 was fitting beautifully with my channeling abilities, and I attracted opportunities for office space to do this Reiki work and Intuitive work in Indianapolis. Now, in addition, the music and the Reiki are fitting together as I learn about sound healing and things like Reiki-infused music and music-infused Reiki. It is so amazing to me how life unfolds in ways that amaze but we somehow get glimpses of what could be, yet we don’t know how we can get to our dreams and yet the dreams unfold into yet even better dreams and magical abilities.

We also all have so many unexpected hardships along the way and think we are off track sometimes, but I believe it is these very hardships and side roads that make us stronger–strong enough for the next thing that our higher self has planned for us! The last 2 years have been an upheaval for me, revealing unhealthy patterns in me that I couldn’t see without some shake-ups and re-formulating in some very close relationships.

But it all makes sense now–if you have painful childhood wounds you need to relearn how to bond with people with pure love at the core. I have even more self-compassion for my wounds, even more strength to observe them and release them and grow stronger with each layer of emotional pain from the past that presents itself.

The result is a really strong foundation at my core, an independence and confidence to stand on my own 2 feet, and empowerment that is not codependent on a partner or children, or a role, or achievement in life but in a power of being that is centered, grounded, and wise with knowing that I am worthy of having it all just by being. And that we are all worthy of having it all and I LOVE helping others to get to this same feeling of wholeness and vitality and creative expression.

Whew! What a ride the last 10 years have been! The first 3 years of this blog contain the meatiest, most substantial posts in my opinion so I am going to be reblogging those posts on the day that they were posted 10 years ago as they come up. I will also be posting updates in the present day too interspersed with these older blog posts.

So here is the very first blog post from the first day I signed up for the wordpress site– I was back then just learning to navigate the brand new wordpress world (and with my very first laptop computer too–I was still just learning the computer) at that time–my youngest child was now settled in college.

The first post was lyrics to an original song that expressed the hope I felt at going from “lost” to “found”. Thank you to all of you who follow me and to any of you who have followed me from the very beginning, I am sending you big hugs!!! ๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’žI’d love a comment or a hello from you!! Please join me in celebrating my 10 year anniversary of teaching and learning self-compassion through this blog–all the way from Elaine to Roxanne Elaine. I will continue to write here to share my journey to comfort and encourage all who resonate with this community of Hope and Healing. I’m so grateful to all of you who read my blog. Again I THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart and the depths of my soul.

Wishing you a wonderful Happy New Year Celebration!! ๐ŸŽ‰๐Ÿ™Œ Yay!! It’s 2020!!๐Ÿคฉ

A new Beginning for us all.

Party like 1999

Sending you comfort, caring, inner peace, love and light,

and Encouragement to Enjoy Life, and Permission to Party!!

Look how far you’ve come!! ๐Ÿ˜ƒ๐Ÿ’ƒ๐Ÿ•บโฃ๏ธ

Roxanne โœŒ๏ธ๐Ÿ˜‡๐ŸŽถ๐Ÿ’–โœจ

 

Hope and Healing Haven

My very first post, Dec. 30, 2009:ย 

I Was Lost But Now Iโ€™ve Found Me

Lyrics by Roxanne Smith

I am strong but they canโ€™t see me

I am wise but they canโ€™t hear me

I am kind but they canโ€™t feel me

I was lost but now Iโ€™ve found me

I can see the truth in me

I can feel the love in thee

I can have the strength I lost begin again

Your belief in me makes me free

CHORUS

I am sad and you are there to hold me

I am weak and you are there to guide me

I am scared and you are there to love me

I was lost but now Iโ€™ve found me

I can be all that I can be

Overcome the fear they gave me

When all I feel is lost and unaware

You are there to say you care

Whenโ€ฆ

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Holiday Help! Tips For Super Self-Compassion and Lavish Self-Love!

Hello Everyone! I’m sending Love and Comfort to everyone who feels emotional pain right now with the holidays approaching. Itโ€™s your wounded โ€œinner childโ€ just needing some extra love from …YOU! Take some time to write/journal from your inner childโ€™s perspectiveโ€”you deserved to be seen and loved and you did not get it!

Now you can give it to yourself! ๐Ÿ’ž You are a gifted, sensitive soul! If you need someone to listen and be a witness, hold space for you as you grieve the losses of an unhappy childhood, I can help. Just reach out to truevoicelifecoaching.com. But It is not my intention to sell services right now but to just purely give comfort to those who need it!

Please know you are loved from above and you have a guardian angel sending you insights to help you right this minute. Maybe it is your guide that is inspiring me to share this message so that you will see it! ๐Ÿ˜‡ There is so much hope because LOVE heals and you are pure love thatโ€™s still learning how to flow. We all are! You are not alone.

I hope that you will feel free to do what makes your soul feel comforted with no apologies. Having a good cry can do wonders to clear it all out if you havenโ€™t allowed yourself this luxury. Permission granted to release all your despairing feelings that have been held inside. Iโ€™m always amazed how much better I feel after a good hard cry! It’s always quicker than I think it will be too! Whatโ€™s life for anyway if we canโ€™t be REAL, right?!

We all need comfort sometimes and some of us need it more than others. Often the most gifted, creative souls feel the most misunderstood and so canโ€™t find the way to share their gifts with the world. Remember the Beatles song HELPโ€”itโ€™s a universal human necessity to reach out for help. We all need help sometimes.

Comforting and guiding those who are doing their inner child healing work is my purposeโ€”through my songs, through my Reiki, and through my session work with clients. I feel so blessed that through my own healing journey I discovered the joy of helping others find their creative flow and wholeness again.

So I am sending you love and wishing you a Holiday that is rich in self-compassion and comfort!! You deserve it! Along with you favorite select food indulgences, take an extra heaping helping of Lavish Self-Love, and Super Self-Compassionโ€”(I know that you are the opposite of selfish in general as you tend to put everyone elseโ€™s needs before your own. Itโ€™s time for that people-pleasing to stop and for your own healing to go to the top of your to-do list. No more doing things out of obligation that drain your precious energy).ย  Yes, this message is meant for YOU! โœจ๐Ÿ˜โœจ

So in conclusion, I want to tell you that I am thinking of you all and wishing you a Thanksgiving weekend filled with love and all of your favorite things! Think of this blog community as your soul Family who knows and appreciates you best and always will!

Sending heartfelt hugs, lavish love, and warm wishes of caring comfort,

Roxanne ๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ’–โœจ

P.S. Oh I just decided to add this. ๐Ÿ˜ Here’s my Thanksgiving Song–Original song entitled “I’m Grateful”. I just released this video of my debut “live” performance of this song yesterday. I hope you enjoy it.ย  AND below that I’m also including a video of my son and I singing together on a Christmas song that I wrote–it’s silly (and was recorded 5 years ago) but it comes with my (our ๐Ÿ˜Š) deepest love and blessings to cheer up anyone who needs a boost over the holidays. We both still love to watch it.ย  I hope you do too! (The lyrics to both songs are visible in the description boxes of the videos if you watch them on the YouTube channel–just click the “YouTube” at the bottom of these videos that appears after you press play and it will take you there, then click “show more” under the video to see the lyrics…)

I’d love to hear from you!ย  Please comment belowโฃ๏ธ๐Ÿ’ซ๐Ÿฆ‹๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ˜ƒ

High Expectations? New Tools For Sensitive Souls’ Healing Journeys.

Hello Everyone!  I havenโ€™t written for a while because Iโ€™ve been so busy just observing this emotional roller coaster ride of the last couple monthsโ€”itโ€™s been hard to put into words!  It has propelled me into journaling more to get clarity and as always when I write I am able to access a higher perspective of โ€œwhat the heck is going on nowโ€! ๐Ÿ˜ณ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ˜†Haha! Iโ€™ve learned a few things and so I feel ready to share some of the positive things to give all of you sensitive souls on this spiritual journey a boost to feel better about EVERYTHING!

What a roller coaster ride!  By this I mean Ups and Downs and Curves and Surprises and Shocks! Can you relate? But at the end of a roller coaster ride at an amusement park, the end of the ride comes with a slowing down and a smooth safe feeling until it comes to a stop and you get off and everyone is all smiles and Gee that was fun.  Well, in general I mean haha, and only because you knew it was temporaryโ€”it was a ride you took by choice and it was a safe way to experience a thrill and know it would be over soon.  

Compare that to this incarnation of life on this planet. As sensitive souls, we are highly evolved divine beings here to help, but we have expectations of smooth sailing and love and abundance. I really think it is these expectations that contribute to us getting stuck in the lows on the roller coaster that we experience.  

All of this is coming up for me to talk about I believe because of this last full moon on October 13-yesterday!  If you are like me you may have noticed that you are very sensitive to cosmic changes to the planet and Full Moons and New Moons etc..  I am not very educated in astrology but I find myself searching for YouTube videos to explain whatโ€™s going on cosmically at certain times when Iโ€™m feeling out of balance and sure enough it is a full moon or a solar flare or something like this causing our distress and it all resonates and gives a sense of relief.  

I get some reassurance from the information I watch or read from elsewhere but often times I am searching and donโ€™t find what I need to feel inner peaceโ€”then I am forced to write and then I realize as I connect to my higher self, my inner wisdom, my spirit team, my angels, the Universe, God, whatever you want to call โ€œITโ€.

I am then reminded that all my answers for my own inner peace can be found โ€œwithinโ€.  I know this but why do I keep forgetting it?  Looking for outside validation has been ingrained in us as humans on this planet and we all feel thisโ€”trying to fit in and feel understood by other humansโ€”wanting a tribe or even one other person who understands us and makes us feel reassured and comforted that we are OKAY and that what we are feeling is OKAY and that there is hope and that everything is going to be OKAY.

This neediness we feel is understandableโ€”as highly sensitive, compassionate, evolved souls we are awakening spiritually but we are straddling 2 worlds. We are trying to make it in the 3D world and pay our bills etc. and also looking at the higher perspective of the 5D spiritual world for deeper meaning and understanding of why we are here, keeping our vibration high, and living in the moment to access the unconditional love that we have resonated with as Yes, This is it! All is well! We want that feeling everyday, all the time, every morning when we wake up.

But what I am understanding is, when we wake up in the morning with horrible dread and feeling bad about being here on the planet we need to observe this as information and not as our current truth.  As divine beings, we have often been astral traveling in our sleep. We love to be in the higher angelic realms where we are from evidentlyโ€”itโ€™s all Love and Light there all the time! ๐Ÿ˜‡ ๐Ÿ˜ So when we come back into our bodies and wake up as a human on the planet, the densest negative energies, often from our childhoods or possibly past lives come up to the surface so that we can see that these energies are there and are just ready to be โ€œreleasedโ€. 

We are strong and powerful divine beings with love and light as our true nature but when we were born we didnโ€™t know this so these wounded parts of ourselves are taking longer to heal then we โ€œexpectedโ€. If you had a narcissistic parent then you were unloved and had unmet needs day in and day out for years and years and so you have many layers of of small hurts and false beliefs about yourself that need reparented and comforted one by one. That may be discouraging to hear that it is going to take longer to heal than you expected but here is the good news.  If you observe the big bad emotion you wake up with as just โ€œinformationโ€ about your past rather than your present truth you can transmute it in minutes!  

First, describe the feeling and label it!  What is this? Is it shame, dread, hopelessness, anxiety? Then you do the opposite of avoiding it, or believing it, or numbing it out by keeping busyโ€”you go towards it and you write about it in your journal and you have compassion for yourself about it. 

Or if you are already versed in this healing process you go right to a positive affirmation to retrain the neurons in your brain to go a more positive route.  You recognize this bad feeling is your inner critic and not the truth.  It is your survival โ€œfalseโ€ self that absorbed the bad feelings from others around you not knowing they werenโ€™t your feelings.  After all you were just a tiny child and had to believe what you were being โ€œfedโ€ to survive and to get along with your caretakers who didnโ€™t SEE you for the gifted soul you were.

Most of you know this but if you are like me right now you are still surprised that you are still dealing with these long healed issuesโ€”especially in the last few months.  It is my understanding that the last remnants of these layers are possibly the most painful and most deeply ingrained and you are strong enough now to finally look at them, acknowledge that it was even worse than you thought.  So give yourself even more kindness, compassion and comforting reparenting than you ever have before. Extreme extreme self care (double extreme ๐Ÿ˜ƒ) is in order whenever you wake up feeling bad!!  Be nicer to yourself instead of harder to yourself.  After all isnโ€™t that what your narcissistic parent or bully said to you when they ran out of patience with youโ€”they said โ€œwhatโ€™s wrong with youโ€”why arenโ€™t you over this yetโ€”you should be feeling better by nowโ€”you are not doing as well as you thoughtโ€.  See? These things you say to yourself are judgements you are making just like bullies or abusers did which is the opposite of the unconditional love and comfort you deserved back then and deserve now.  

Sometimes it isnโ€™t until we get out of our heads and start writing onto paper that we are even realizing we are beating ourselves up just like โ€œtheyโ€ did (if you had caretakers who maybe even did the best they could but were needy themselves so they didnโ€™t have the patience that you needed as a highly sensitive soul who was sensitive for a very good reason.)

So now it is up to you. To KNOW you are pure love and light and when you wake up feeling bad you are to lovingly cleaning away the false residue, the past debris, that is covering up your beautiful brilliant lamp of love and light. You now have some more tools in your toolbox to lift yourself back up to where you belong.

Joy is your birthright and you are doing a great job figuring out how to shine what is rightfully yours every moment that you can. Be nicer to yourself when you feel bad not harder on yourself. You are training your brain to go positive quicker and quicker when you get better and better at replacing the doubts negative core beliefs with positive affirmations.  You can do it!  You are pure love and light.

Being a human is extremely complex!  Be patient with this healing journey that you are on!  You may be a sensitive soul who seeks safety and inner peace but you are also a tough warrior with new boundaries to take on this challenge of transmuting darkness into light on planet earth.  You chose to come here because you knew you could be successful at finding your true voice and true self and shining your true light.

Just being here on the planet you emanate this light and love energy and it uplifts others who need it. You are making a difference just by being here. So relax and be patient with yourself. It takes time and there is plenty of time for all the things you want to do. Self-compassion and self-care is always time well spent.  

Sensitive souls, I am so glad you are here on the planet with me. You make the planet a wonderful place to be. If we join forces we can move mountains. Thanks for reading and please reach out if youโ€™d like one-on-one coaching.  My email is hopesinger11@gmail.com. Sometimes just having someone to see us and listen to our feelings with understanding can be so healing.  I also offer distance Reiki and intuitive guidance during sessions as wellโ€”you design the sessions the way your heart desires. 

Iโ€™m adding a link to my latest YouTube Video here of a recent performance of my original song, We Are Here To Love. The lyrics to this song just flowed out of me from beginning to end with no changesโ€”it was magical. I feel now is the perfect time to share these lyrics with you.

Lyrics: -We Are Here To Love-

Trudging through the past debris, finding sparks of light

Holding onto highest hopes, knowing love is right

Seeing through the doubtersโ€™ eyes, knowing those above

Want us to believe and know, time is made for love

Chorus: We are here to love, We can fly with wings of time

When we feel the past, We must rise above and shine

We must rise above and shine, We must rise above and shine

 

Reminded who we are by pushing past the egoโ€™s call

Kindness to ourselves is all we need to break the wall

Pieces still fall down on us, donโ€™t misunderstand

Keep the rays of light around and hold each otherโ€™s hand

Chorus: We are here to loveโ€ฆ

Verse not included in this video performance:

(Power from the latest move unearthโ€™s a tender spot

Confusing inner child takes stage, plays out what we forgot

Kindness is in order now soothing wounds so raw

New aliveness, strength abounds, braving what we saw

Chorus:.. We Are Here to…)

Bridge: Learning to be still and yet, adversity remains

But even when we think weโ€™ve stalled, weโ€™ve unraveled many chains

Working hard it seems we have not played to really live

But underneath we somehow gain renewed hearts to give

Chorus: We are here to loveโ€ฆ

Have faith and know that even in the hardest grief of times

You are loved and cheered about, so take in all the signs

Relish in the life you have, grateful for the rest

All will see the loveliness, you are a force for goodness

Chorus: We are here to loveโ€ฆ You must rise above and shineโ€ฆ shineโ€ฆ shine You must rise above and shine. (slow end)

Original Song ยฉ Roxanne E. Smith

 

Until next time, With Love and Light,

Roxanne โœŒ๏ธ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ’–โœจ   

New Channeled Angel Message–August 2019 Update Part 2 For Empaths and Sensitive Souls

(These messages are to be shared for all who resonate and are open to receiving spiritual guidance.ย  This includes Empaths, Highly Sensitive People (HSPs), Lightworkers, Spiritually Awakening Souls, Earth Angels, and to all Seekers and Open-hearted souls.

This message will be added myย Channeled Angel Messages Page on my blog which has posts of angel messages that I am now posting there weekly or bi-weekly.ย  There you will find all the other messages from 6 Archangel Guides (most of the time it is 6 but it changes) that I have posted since November, 2018.)

Hello Everyone! I have another channeled angel message for you! This time Archangel Ariel joined my usual 6 Archangel Guides for this message.ย ย 

Archangel Ariel is the Archangel of the Natural World and is a healing angel using nature to help us Rejuvenate! She has a special connection to nature, animals, and elementals and helps us connect with these for our own comfort and healing.ย  She is also a powerful aid in manifesting abundance in our lives.ย  Sheโ€™s the “Lioness of God” helping us with confidence to get out of our comfort zone and โ€œgo for it!โ€ย  She has a feminine light pink energy of divine love that she shines strongly to comfort us and remind us of the strength in our divine nature.

Before I channeled this message I checked in with each of the Archangels to confirm their presence.ย  I detected another Archangel and when I asked who it was I was told the name Ariel. Then I felt the amazing essence of this new angelic guide who wants to contribute to these messages to all of you. I feel so honored to be the one who gets to be the messenger of this important angelic information from these 7 Archangels–it all comes through as a singular group consciousness message. Here is the latest message!:

Channelled Angel Message on Aug. 23, 2019

“Dear Ones, We are so happy to be giving you this message today.ย  We see you are weary from the energies of this past week. At the same time you accomplished much in the way of your own healing and knowing what you must do next on your journey to fulfilling your lifeโ€™s purpose.ย  It hasnโ€™t been an easy week but you are somehow also grateful for where you are now from all that you have learned.ย  You are aware that you need some rest and then you will have a burst of energy to get things done that you are excited about.ย 

You are listening to your inner guidance and have new clarity of direction in some areas and other areas are still cloudy.ย  Trust that you will be guided to the other paths when the time is right.ย  You are tweeking your plans somewhat to fit your personalities to fit the fine line between your comfort zone and taking some risks that feel right to you.ย  You have learned from past experience to not go too far out on a limb BUT you are more comfortable with being your true spiritual selves in ways you havenโ€™t been comfortable before.ย 

You know you are here on a mission to help the planet be a better place and you are ready to shine your light brighter than ever before.ย  We are proud of you as we see you have learned to pace yourselves and have learned much about self-care, grounding and taking baths or getting in nature when you feel drained.ย  We are proud of your new found clarity about when you are feeling the feelings of others and how to release these energies and recharge in your own pure love energies.ย  Wow! This is such a valuable tool for your lifeโ€”you can recharge from any trigger or stressful situation knowing you can always connect to pure love which you are seeing is your natural state of being. Yay! Congratulations!

Another thing we see happening for you is that you are embracing whatever life throws up to challenge you rather than dread being triggered again by loved ones.ย  Recent events have helped you to see that you are the stronger one emotionally and by staying calm and shining love on a person who is in a negative state you understand now that you are shortening this conflict in big ways and getting to the lesson or feelings that are to be released very quickly.ย 

You are excited about so many things, you are able to prioritize the things that tax your time and even cut out doing things you used to do so you can be more productive during your day.ย  You have a new determination to achieve your goals because you know you are good at these things and you see the service that you bring to others with your gifts.ย  Yes, it is an exciting time right now.ย  We want to encourage you to keep on seeing yourself in a positive light even when you are tired and need a rest. Others may not understand this need for rest so you can rest without others knowing if this makes it easierโ€”you are stopping yourselves from complaining and wanting others to validate your tirednessโ€”you see that they are not going to understand because they are not where you are on your soulโ€™s journey.ย 

The emotional healing that you have done has caused you to be very aware of your feelings, body, and mind whereas others in your life are still needing to avoid and numb out their feelings with different vices that no longer interest you.ย  A big challenge for you is to let them learn for themselvesโ€”your results with your new ways of being are a role model for them and you do not need to say a word. Your results will be clear to you and to them in an unspoken and yet deeply satisfying way for youโ€”You KNOW you are teaching them there is a better way to attract abundance that is not forced but comes from following a flow of your heartโ€™s desire and inner guidance that only comes from getting out of the the left brainโ€™s linear thought flow and following the heart and right brain feeling-side or meditative โ€œintuitiveโ€ side.ย 

Writing in a journal connects you to your right brain and inner guidance and access to pure love.ย  We know we keep talking about this but we feel it is important for those who are very resistant to writing about their feelings or deepest most private self.ย  Excavating your true feelings is like being an archeologist digging for answers to โ€œwhyโ€โ€”This an idea talked about in a book by author Gary Zukav.ย  It is in finding the origins in your childhoods or past lives that you can heal the foundational patterns that were formed that keep you from moving forward towards your dreams, desires, and true purpose for being here on the planet.ย 

Once you have these tools to be utilized anytime confusing feelings knock you off of your center, you can regain your balance by writing and asking us angels, or your higher self, or God or the Universe (whichever term resonates) what is really going on?ย  Often you may be believing your negative thoughts rather than seeing those thoughts from a higher perspective. Ask in your writing โ€œWhere did they come from?โ€”When did they originate?โ€ An aha moment or insight may come to you about an incident from childhood. If this happens then shine self-compassion to the tiny child who did the best he or she could from what he or she knew at the time.

Survival patterns got engrained back then and when you shine light on these scars they can finally be healed.ย  Grieving the loss of the freedom to be your true self as a child takes time and so much self-compassion and self LOVE. You deserved love and now you can give it to yourself.ย  And us angels are here to help with this process of emotional healing so that you can shine your light as bright as possible each step of the way to wholeness and becoming your higher self in your ascension journey.ย 

Be very kind to yourself every day and especially on days when dread or shame or anxiety pops up from out of the blue.ย  Often this happens when youโ€™ve recently had a success or reached a new level of receiving love in your lifeโ€”this concept was talked about by John Gray in several of his booksโ€”he says: โ€œPain comes up to heal when things are going wellโ€.ย  He is right. The old is clearing out to make room for even more love but it confuses you when it arises because you believe it to be true when it is just negativity on the way out of your body.ย  Imagine it leaving you as an energy no longer needed for you to survive.ย 

The quickest way is to just slow down with big deep breaths and say โ€œI breathe in loveโ€ and โ€œI breathe out loveโ€ with each breath.ย  Imagine yourself surrounded by only loving energy in a big protective bubble around you. Have fun in your bubble of freedom and love.ย  Imagine yourself swimming or flying around in your bubble however your inner child desires and people who may disapprove of your freedom can only watch you swim freely as if watching a fish in a gold fish bowl.ย  You are safe and free to swim in your own bubble of love any time you want.ย  Haha!

We hope you have fun and laugh with visualizations like this.ย  You deserve to have fun in life and not be so serious all the time.ย  Not being able to have fun in life certainly can stem from a childhood of not feeling safe enough to relax and even be in your own bodies due to emotional trauma.ย  This can be from past lives too or when you were young adults and not always childhood.ย  Often though, sensitive souls and empaths have chosen traumatic childhoods to replicate trauma from past lives that were never healed yetโ€”this present life has much opportunity for you to finally heal these deep wounds and your higher self knows you are strong enough if you will only LISTEN.

Listen to the promptings of your compassionate heart to be kind to yourself and stop the harsh self-talk that keeps you believing the untruths that were formed out of survival.ย  Give yourself the unconditional love that you so freely are able to give to othersโ€”especially when you are having an unproductive dayโ€”be kinder instead of making yourself โ€œtough it out and ignore your painโ€. Pain is a teacher to awaken you to your SELF. Dear ones, you are doing such a good job on this complex journeyโ€”being a human is so complex!ย 

You donโ€™t have to figure it all out quickly. We like the quote: “You donโ€™t have to change yourself you only need to love yourself”.ย  It takes time to heal all the layers and we want you to know you are doing a great job!ย  We love you and we understand you because we are youโ€”we are your brothers and sisters from the archangel realm and we honor your bravery to volunteer for this mission to shine your love and light on planet earth. Take care of your precious energy so you may find your niche and thrive in abundance.ย 

We will be back soon with another message through Roxanne who is our pure channel of love, comfort, and support for all empaths, sensitive souls, and all divine souls who resonate with these messages. Our last word to you is to take a break from all your work and emotional healing and have some fun!ย  You deserve to laugh and be silly and dance, sing, relax, and at least do something that makes you smile whether itโ€™s a movie, or dinner out, or finding some live music somewhere to enjoy being in your human body. Be creative with whatever sparks fun for your inner child.

We love you and we are proud of you and we are having an angel dance party right now cheering you on! Until next time, love and light and FUN, from Archangel (AA) Muriel (AA of Empaths), AA Chamuel (AA of Comfort), AA Jophiel (AA of Creativity and Beauty), AA Sandalphon (AA of Grounding and Music, AA Uriel (AA of Wisdom), AA Azriel (AA of Grieving Loss and Transitions), and for the first time Archangel Ariel joined in and is encouraging you to get out of the house and take a walk or bike ride in nature to rejuvenate your soul.ย  Itโ€™s fun too, she says!”

I hope you enjoyed this message!

Peace and Love,

Roxanne โœŒ๏ธ๐Ÿ˜‡๐Ÿ’–โœจ

New Weekly Channeled Angel Messages: Comfort For Empaths and Lightworkers During Ascension

Channeled Angel Messagesย โœจ๐Ÿ˜‡๐Ÿ’–โœจWeekly!

Hello Everyone!ย  These messages are to be shared for all who resonate and are open to receiving spiritual guidance.ย  This includes Empaths, Highly Sensitive People (HSPs), Lightworkers, Spiritually Awakening Souls, Earth Angels, and to all Seekers and Open-hearted souls.

This blog post is taken from my Channeled Angel Messages Page on my blog that has 13 posts of angel messages that I am now posting there weekly.ย  There you will find all the other messages from my 6 archangel guides (most of the time it is 6 but it changes) that I have posted since November, 2018. Please comment if you like receiving the angel messages in my blog posts. I’d love to hear from you.

Peace and Love to you,

Roxanne Elaine Smith ๐Ÿ’—

July 15, 2019

Dear Gorgeous Sensitive Souls, we are greeting you this way because some of you are not feeling so beautiful right now and we want to reassure you that you are and so much more than you can imagine.ย ย Your brilliant light and healing abilities are vast and strong and your ability to tap into the beauty and bliss of existence is very real. Often you get bogged down from being around others and donโ€™t even realize the negativity is not yours.ย ย Other times you are triggered by the insensitivity of loved ones and your own unhealed wounds come up to the surface.ย ย Often this makes you feel shocked at the depth of your wounds about feeling safe.ย ย You know that you need to feel safe at a basic level.ย 

The good news is that this is happening so that you can now begin to create this safety for yourself from the inside out.ย ย Until you know about these unsafety feelings that have been long hidden inside, you canโ€™t heal them.ย ย So your higher self is guiding you to these situations where you have to face these needs for safety that were never properly formed in your childhood or you may have root chakra damage from past lives that has not been resolved that is playing out in this lifetime.ย 

This happens if you died tragically in a past life for being persecuted for many reasons and one example is for being accused of being a witch. Or you may have been an outspoken or rebellious woman or man who did not follow the rules of your time and were trying to help others in some way. The list of possibilities is long.ย ย Deep feelings of untrust and injustice and not being able to speak your truth may all be coming up to be healed and resolved in this life. You may be clearing throat chakras issues in this case.ย ย If it all feels like too much to decipher and bear please take a break from figuring it all out and be really kind to yourself right now. Often the weekends are when conflicts arise because we have the time and our higher self knows it.ย ย Try to trust that your higher self will not give you more than you can handle.ย 

If you can write in the mornings to get back in touch with your true loving nature and clear out your disappointment, then the rest of your day will go so much better.ย ย We see how strong you are, how amazing you are when you speak out about thingsโ€”when your words are twisted or not received well, you are hard on yourself and forget that what you were saying is/was very accurate. Your are right and you are right most of the timeโ€”people who manipulate and downplay your words are just showing their insecurities and fear.ย ย It is disguised as power but it is born out of fear of not being good enough.ย ย You also have roots of not being good enough that you are clearing out.

You are now knowing you are good enough so you expect loved ones to be a cheerleader for you and you may be shocked and disappointed when they are not.ย ย You would never not be a cheerleader so then you blame yourself for not choosing people in your life who are not cheerleaders. Please know that what gifts you bring to the planet, of creativity and high vibration, cause a healing crisis in other people sometimes and it is all unconscious to themโ€”they donโ€™t know why they react the way they do. Think of yourselves as magic healers walking around bringing up others unhealed wounds sometimes.ย ย Think of yourselves like Glenda the Good Witch floating around with a smile and beauty and a powerful wandโ€”we hope this brings a smile to your face.ย ย It may seem silly but if you are feeling victimized instead of seeing that you are healing, this image can really help you to heal.ย 

Of course Glenda has a magic bubble to get away and you canโ€™t float away in your human world but you absolutely have the power to put a protective bubble around yourself at any time with just your imagination and intention.ย ย Itโ€™s best to imagine this amazing bubble of yours to allow love and light and bliss to flow out to others but no negativity may enter. There are many ways you may imagine your bubbleโ€”you may like to create it to have a mirrored exterior shining outward so that when negativity approaches, it sees itself and runs away. We want this to be fun for you to experiment with.ย 

We are also wanting to lighten your heavy mood that stems from having absorbed negativity from elsewhere. Innately your energy is all love and light and so you can ask your guides and angels to lift off any energy that is not yours at any time. We want to help and we remind you that you must ask for our help in order for us to do things like this. We love you so much, dear ones, and we want you to be excited about who you are and your abilities to manifest your desires that are in the highest good for your soul. In order for your dreams to come true the lower vibrational repressed emotions from childhood must be cleared out.

Right now you may have anger to be cleared outโ€”it might be causing a blockage in the heart and solar plexus chakrasโ€”imagine the frustration of not having a voice to say no to abuse and injustice and since you are healing and getting stronger and some good things are happening in your life, it makes sense that repressed anger from the past would come up to the surface to be healed.ย ย You may find you have exploded at someone recently or wanted to and perhaps you are shocked at the rage that you feel. We want you to know you can release this anger in harmless ways by several techniques. One is by writing all the rage out at someone in a letter and do not hold back and tell the truth of the depth of your rageโ€”and then burn it of course (in a private releasing ceremony if youโ€™d like) or shred it because this would be damaging for anyone else to actually read.

Also hitting a mattress as hard as you can as often as you need to to release this anger out of your body.ย ย Thirdly, saying or yelling what you wish you could say to an abuser or unfair situation into a pillow to muffle the sound. We do not want you to hurt your vocal chords of course so alternate these different techniques as you feel guided.ย ย We want you to look at this as a healing exercise and notice the relief that you feel.ย ย We do not need to tell you that unleashing anger onto a person would be harmful as well as lower your vibration and only cause you to feel remorseโ€”but humans do have this big reaction at times so if by chance you do have an angry outburst on another it will do wonders to genuinely apologize for any words that diminished the other person in any way. If you were just loud out of frustration that is okay occasionally although you may find that yelling just triggers others and they may not be as mindful as you in their choice of words back to you which may trigger you in return.ย 

So you can see that staying calmโ€”speaking your truth in a calm tone such as saying: โ€œI know who I am, and what is being said about me here is incorrectโ€ or โ€œI do not want to be treated this wayโ€ and walk away is the beginning of finding your voice and strength to standing in your power and ending co-dependence on others approval.ย ย We see that many of you are getting your independent legs and we are so proud of you.ย ย Do not be discouraged if it has taken you a long time to get to where you can see with clarity that you are treated less than fairly in your love relationships too. Do not be too quick to throw this relationship away because all that may need to happen is for you to calmly say โ€œNo Iโ€™โ€™m not going to allow you to talk to me like thatโ€”Maybe you should go take a walk and calm downโ€ or something to that effect. We know this is easier said than done but we want you to see the progress you are making that we seeโ€”and be cheerleaders for yourselves to continue to grow in your strength as sensitive caring souls who only want to help.ย 

You will get more respect from the divine masculine partner when you stay calm and speak strongly and forcefully rather than cry and yell from a feeling of victimization. Forgive yourselves for occasional outbursts, you are human and itโ€™s okay and may even be eye opening for you to see the hidden inner wound in you that needs to be healed. To be blamed or criticized or mocked or betrayed are all things you mustnโ€™t stand for and you must speak up aboutโ€”you will find your words in time.ย ย Marriage counseling called Imago Relationship Therapy can be very helpful if you are having marital struggles with someone who is very much still in 3D and acting from their egoโ€”because the principle is that you each are attracted to the very person who will bring up your childhood wounds so that you can heal them.ย 

We have talked about marital struggles here because we want you to see that it is often through relationships that we grow the most because your partners show you where the pain lies.ย ย Optimally you can come to an agreement with your partner that you both need to provide a safe space for you each to heal your own wounds and honor and respect each others needs for time alone to process after an argument. This is difficult if you have abandonment wounds and a deep need to feel connected to another person in order to feel loved.ย ย This is very hard and you may have PTSD with these wounds as the basis.ย ย Asking your partner to just hold you at times can help tremendously in healing the early childhood wounds of not being held enough. Know that you are a gift to any partner you choose because you are pure loveโ€”knowing this deep in your soul will help you heal your own abandonment wounds.

If you are single with abandonment wounds you are healing it every day that you take care of yourself and are not looking for someone else to complete you.ย ย You are complete and whole and we are especially proud of you learning to love yourself and look deeply inward to see that the wounds can be healed with your own self-compassion and finding your voice by journaling or reaching out to a trusted sensitive, and experienced counselor. Trust your heart to know youโ€™ve found the right person to help.ย ย Always remember you can talk to us anytime and ask for guidance and be open to the answers coming to you in your mind as new insights and ideasโ€”of course writing to us in a journal is another way of receiving insights that very may well seem like your own ideas but we are helping in a way that may not be obvious.ย 

This is the beginning of trusting your intuition and this muscle will grow stronger with use.ย ย So we leave you today with much advice about healing your inner wounds and your relationship conflictsโ€”this is because we want you to know you are not being punished by these difficulties happening in your lives right nowโ€”much to the contrary, these conflicts are providing you with opportunities to see clearly where your wounds are and how you can heal them to feel strong no matter what happens in your life.ย ย This inner strength is what is already inside you, we can see it, but you are just beginning to see it.ย 

Having inner strength is all you need to manifest your dreams and even future treasures that your higher self has planned for you that you can not even imagine. Trust that the universe is in your favor always at all times. Easier times are ahead as you clear out and acknowledge and release the hardest wounds from your past.ย ย We send you comfort and hugs and butterfly kisses for your wounded inner child. Until next time, be gentle on yourselves, AA Muriel (Empaths), AA Chamuel (Comfort), AA Jophiel (Creativity and Beauty), AA Sandalphon (Grounding and Music), AA Uriel (Wisdom), and AA Azriel (Grief, Loss, and Transitions)

Update! Angel Channeling Success, Inner Child Healing, and a Vacation!

Hi Everyone! I’m happy to say my channeling from last week’s post that I put on YouTube is doing so well!–as of now I have over 2600 views, 260 likes and lots of positive, grateful comments on the Higher Self Channel. I had no idea it would do so well! Here’s the link to see it:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rpKhVU5Etosย  ย ( I apologize but this link is no longer working because I took the video down and moved all my future Channeled Angel Message videos to a new YouTube Channel here.ย To see all Channeled Angel Messages you can read them here on my blog by clicking here.)

With all the excitement, I then caught a bad cold on Friday. I hadn’t come down with a virus like this in years–I like to believe it happened because I’m clearing out the old from my body that no longer fits and I have shifted into a higher vibration–I hope! ๐Ÿ˜‡. This is what my inner guidance is saying ๐Ÿ˜โœจ so I’m inclined to believe it. ๐Ÿ˜ƒ It’s called a “healing crisis”–google it if you want to learn more.

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I also had to process some emotional pain that got triggered when I was feeling so sick, miserable and alone, and unable to think, or do any work–it triggered me back to my abandonment wound from early childhood and I started spiraling with hopelessness feelings and irrational thoughts like “I will never be well again”–a child believe’s this when they have no comfort and no-one to explain what is happening and that they are going to be okay.

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This wisdom came to me when I allowed myself to examine what messages my inner critic was saying when I was feeling the worst.ย  With this delving inward, I had an AHA moment!– for the first time when ill, I had clarity of exactly where that feeling came from and I was able to feel it and comfort myself through it–simultaneously I felt myself finally healing from the virus as I felt it lift after a short but intense crying spell about the original neglect and simultaneously comforting myself through it–this was an emotional healing breakthrough! I let the little child in me cry about the original painful event that had been repressed.ย  I felt so good after that cry–I was …reconnected to my truth–to my true higher self.

That was yesterday.ย  Today, when I woke up, I felt like Yay my brain is working again, I feel excited and stronger than ever, and I’m getting ready for a vacation in 4 days with my husband.

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I’ll be back here writing again after I get back from the Bahamas (my first time there ever)! ๐Ÿ˜ย .

I hope by sharing these things I go through, it will help you the next time you get triggered to a stuck feeling. Write about it and decipher it back to it’s roots and let the inner child ( or past life YOU) cry about it to release this truth that has been repressed.ย  Crying is part of the healing–Comforting yourself is the crucial 2nd part of the emotional healing process–you know you would comfort a crying child who is ill (or abused) and needs to be held and reassured–of course you would so give this to yourself!!ย  You can be your own healer!!

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If you resonate with this, then this is a good time to start an emotional healing journal today if you have not already.ย  Think of it as writing out a private conversation with your best loving friend, your higher self, who loves you unconditionally!

Journaling with tea

It’s so healing!! More on this on another post! Have a wonderful couple of weeks, Everyone!!ย  Sending all of you hugs, comfort, compassion, and deep understanding.

With Love, Light, and Gratefulness,

Roxanne ๐Ÿ˜‡๐Ÿ’–โœจ

NOW Is A Good Time… For Emotional Healing

Hi everyone! ย Now that it’sย Spring, theย warmthย is finally here in the midwestern part of the USA! ย Yay!! ย I feel happier when the temperatures are warmer and I can get outside and enjoy nature and recharge. ย As a HSP healing from childhood wounds, I am still figuring out what makes me happiest and what I “like” most in life–right now I like thinking about some day moving to a warmer climate during the winter months! ย ๐Ÿ˜‰

As HSP children, your “job” may have been to often to take care of your own parents’ feelings so you didn’t dare even ask yourself “What do I want?, How do I feel?, and What are my dreams and desires? ย Perhaps it can be ย “fun” now to “create” a life for yourself that is purely satisfying to “you”. ย This is not being selfish for HSPs who have spent their lives putting others’ feelings and happiness first. ย This is realizingย yourย feelings and desires are meant to be your “compass” for finding direction and satisfaction in your life!

Even after all of your recovery and replacing a negative inner critic with a very consistent feeling of love and protection for yourself and you inner child, do you still sometimes wake up with a feeling of shame that surprises you? ย It may usually happen after a day when you really asserted your voice and followed your heart (I have written about this before). Try to see that as evidence of how your shining light as a child may have been a threat to a narcissistic or bullying ย caretakers and they had to bring you “down”. ย “Get off of your high horse!”, “Who do you think you are!?”, “How dare you be happy when I am not happy!?”, ย and “Straighten up and fly right!”–Were these phrases (spoken or implied silently with mean looks (angry eyes)) ones that come to mind that were a daily occurrence to shame and control you as a child?

Now that you may be working on changing the core beliefs about yourself, it is also helpful to reframe all those events with how youย would have voiced your opposition if you had felt safe and knew you were loved and supported by the Universe. ย Talking back to the inner critic is acknowledging it is there and then saying what you need to say to yourself to be an emotionally healthy soul–say, “I like being on my high horse!–it is good to feel proud of myself!”, “I think I am an amazing and gifted person!”, “Everyone is free to pursue their own happiness–it’s in the Constitution!”, and “Your right way and my right way are 2 different things!” ย If you had felt safe and strong as a child and had been able to say these things in your childhood without being shamed and punished, then your true self would have survived and you would not have had to push your feelings underground and develop a false self that was fearful and obedient. ย You can say it NOW and reclaim your strength that it didn’t feel safe for you to have. It is very healing to your wounded soul when you express the truth about yourself, either silently, out loud, or in a journal–express your true voice!

Just realizing you have an inner critic that stops you from enjoying your life and feeling good about yourself is the first step–writing out all the mixed messages swimming around your brain and getting them on paper in a journal will help you to realize that your inner critic has taken over. ย I no longer have to journal to realize when I am listening to my inner critic–I recognize the negative feeling right away, acknowledge it, and say to myself ย “that is ridiculous and that is not true about me!”

The real truth is I am a shining light of God’s love and I am perfect just the way I am! ย You are perfect just the way you are too! There is nothing wrong with you! ย You just have self-doubt– “doubt” just means questioning the truth–the truth is there but it takes courage to Believe It! ย Believe it because it is true–you are perfect exactly as you are NOW in this moment! ย And you deserve the LOVE, COMFORT, COMPASSION, and ENCOURAGEMENT that you never got during childhood. ย You can learn to give it to yourself!

For myself, any shame feeling I get in the morning goes away immediately as I shoo it away and replace it with love for myself and with my new core beliefs: “This shame is not mine and not true and I have nothing to be ashamed of!” ย Poof! ย Gone! I also say, “Wow, I must have done something amazing and authentically me yesterday, I am on the right path!” ย Then I can’t wait to get up and enjoy my day, my way! ย I love my life and I am grateful that I am free to enjoy it now.

I feel my true purpose is to help others who are struggling to love themselves because of these very complex, negative messages that were engrained in their brains since early childhood. ย It is not easy but growing new loving neural pathways in your brain is possible and I am living proof. ย I hope that by my example I can help those of you struggling, suffering, and occasionally falling into pits of despair to climb out and break free from the negative energy “soup” that can engulf the soul of an emotionally needy HSP. ย It takes time so please be patient with yourself if you fall backwards sometimes.

The key is to keep on feeling the feelings and comforting yourself through them–it is a grieving process. ย You will come out the other side–to truth, light, and a connection to the Universe that no one can ever take away from you–it is innate in you and as a HSP you are a loved and highly evolved soul with compassion and light for others as your greatest gift. ย You are going to be okay if you allow yourself to believe these things NOW–start today. ย I am here, I understand–I have been lost, and now I am found. ย NOW is the time to begin to love yourself without shame. You can do it! ย This blog post was written for YOU!

After a weekend visit with our grown son who lives in Chicago, I felt energized, so energized that I wrote a new poem–even though I am a pretty extreme introvert and we had a very extraversion-filled weekend. ย I was energized because of the quality of the relationship we have with our son and we all so enjoyed each others company and enjoyed being positive, building each other up, expressing our love and appreciation for each other, and having fun together. ย So when we returned I was standing in my kitchen and had to grab paper and a pen because I felt this poem just had to be expressed. ย I just let it flow out of me and when I was done I realized I was still “standing up” in my kitchen! (leaning against the counter ๐Ÿ™‚ ) ย I am so glad I listened to that still small voice in my head that said to write this down. ย Here is the poem that flowed out of me that cold, winter, sunday evening after our trip:

NOW Is A Good Time

By Roxanne Smith

Feb. 18, 2013

NOWโ€™s a good time to nurture yourself and your feelings

To release the past and all painful dealings.

The painโ€™s coming up NOW so youโ€™ll see the truth

of how you werenโ€™t seen and loved in your youth.

The child inside, he or she yearns to be free.

The pain is just blocking your feelings of glee.

Joy and great gladness are all waiting there.

Waiting until you feel the truth and despair.

What happened to you was awful and sick

The pain you repressed was unbearable and thick.

You were too small and dependent back then

but now you are safe so the wounds can open

and your soul wants to heal these wounds from within.

You cannot move higher until you tell the truth of your kin.

How they poked you and pulled you down each time you succeeded

’til you gave up and blamed yourselfโ€ฆ but they werenโ€™t what you needed.

You were a bright star with a higher energy.

They were jealous and threatened by your desire to be free.

So you hid your true self until a much safer time–

Itโ€™s safe NOW so your soul is crying out as a sign

to be kind to your inner child who is coming outโ€”please allow!

Donโ€™t beat yourself up for feeling bad NOW.

Because youโ€™re rising up from patterns ingrained in your head.

New ways of being are in your soul, time to shed

all the old pain, it must be felt to be released.

It is gone forever once you see the danger has ceased.

The danger was real then, donโ€™t ever forget it

but now you choose new friends who are not like your inner critic.

You are learning your true self is a compassionate soul

who is kind to others and that is your role.

So being kind to your self is the very first step.

All day everyday you must give yourself pep!

Donโ€™t listen to your inner criticโ€”it is wrong and so mean

like those who abused you and werenโ€™t nice as they seem.

You deserved better and NOW you must give it to your soul.

The more you are kind, the more youโ€™ll feel Whole!

Each layer of pain will dissolve as you express

all of your confusion and unhappiness.

How could this beโ€ฆ you thought: โ€œI was bad and wrongโ€

but really blaming โ€œYOUโ€ was unfair all along.

You were a bright light never harming a flea–

so easy to control because you trusted completely.

I hope you can see that you can reframe your past.

Replace those mean moments with self-love that will last.

Accepting Love from Above will change your beliefs about your core.

Who you are YOU must love so your dreams can then soar!

You are gifted and brilliant, a gift to us all.

You are treasured by those others who also feel this call.

The callโ€™s mixed with pain and feeling bad about your childhood.

When you change your beliefs you will see your soulโ€™s all Good!

Then you can reconnect with your self and find creativity and fun.

Youโ€™ll learn to relax and recharge from the sun.

Learn to listen to your body instead of working too hard.

Youโ€™ll get lots more done when you โ€œplayโ€ in your yard.

Allowing yourself to enjoy being you

will slow you down and allow the pain to come through.

After a good cry, each time youโ€™ll feel better–

lighter and lighter โ€˜til youโ€™re light as a feather.

And allowing yourself to have space that is yoursโ€”

new boundaries to protect yourself will help open doors.

You must learn to feel grounded and connected to the earth.

This will help you feel solid and put yourself first.

You deserve to be happy and that starts with self-care.

After you are grounded, then you will become aware

that lifting up others is your gift and your purpose

and thereโ€™s a billion others out there who are not just kind on the surface.

They are deep and compassionateโ€”you are not alone.

We are healing together as we feel grace and atone.

We did our best with all that we have known.

NOW we know itโ€™s okay to be angry, then let it go.

Donโ€™t hold onto blame, but blame needs to be spoken.

Release it and move onโ€”donโ€™t yell at the broken.

You are higher than they are (those who brought you down).

You donโ€™t need to punishโ€”you can just leave town

to start a new life and create all that your dreams can arrange.

Move forwardโ€ฆ not fixing those who donโ€™t want to change.

Trust these new feelings that spark in your heart.

Healing is painful but thatโ€™s only part.

This feelingโ€™s inside that youโ€™re finally alive!

Keep going with following your passions inside.

Donโ€™t compare yourself to othersโ€”you have a new gig!

Let desires be your guide and your success will be BIG.

If you do this and trust your intuition inside

your internal guidance will help you to thrive.

Sometimes youโ€™ll get stuck so youโ€™ll need to be kind

to yourself when you inner critic starts messing with you mind.

Drop down to your heart instead of your head.

If you need to cry about something that was said,

grieve for this loss, the wrong path where you were led.

It hurt you so much, childhood pain must be shed

so we can see, that NOW weโ€™re safe and free

And we would have parented differently!

And thatโ€™s good you are different and unique and thatโ€™s great!

I hope you can see that itโ€™s never too late.

We often must go backward to move forward to be free.

You can heal and find wholenessโ€”take it from me!

I found here a community of souls who relate–

I share how I healed and how sensitivity is great!

By journaling out the pain, I had new eyes to see.

My true voice was found, then my true self was free!

I know it sounds simple but it took a long time.

Try to trust in your feelings, then all will be fine.

As I followed my pain I got signs from above:

โ€œrelax and enjoyโ€ and best โ€œYou are loved!โ€

I know of your pain– I know just how you feel.

It happened to me and I learned how to heal

So NOW as you journey from wounded to whole

I hope that these words will comfort your soul.

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Please share your feelings in a comment if this post resonates with you. ย Your comments also help others who are still struggling to find their voice. ย We can help uplift each other higher as a community of compassionate souls. ย Thank you for reading. ย Have a wonderful Spring–may the warmth of the Universe envelope you and comfort you NOW as you heal and grow to your true potential.

With love, light, and my deepest compassion,

Roxanne

The Eruption of Post Traumatic Stress is a Healing Opportunity

Hi everyone. ย I hope you had a wonderful summer and are enjoying this beautiful fall season. ย Wow. ย Two weekends of Indian summer was such a blessing! ย In my eyes the beauty of the season makes up for summer coming to an end. ย I hope it is beautiful wherever you are located! ย It has been a while since I have written, I have had some ailments that have added some stress to my life. ย But as always I feel there is a lesson in everything that happens.

Two ailments occurred on top of each other. ย I was already in distress about a painful ailment when something randomly flew in my eye and temporarily blinded me and with such severe pain that I could not drive myself to the doctor to get it removed. ย This caused me to over-react in such a distressing way that it caused me to experience some childhood emotional pain that had been hidden from me until then. ย The object was removed from my eye and it healed completely in the next 4 days but during this stressful time, I remembered a comment my mother had made. It was an epiphany–an aha moment! ย Her comment was, “When you were 1 1/2 years old, you had severe diarrhea and were in the hospital for over a week and the doctors never figured out the cause. ย The nurses wouldn’t let me visit you because you would try to climb out of the crib to get to me.” ย Years ago when she told me this, I had no emotional reaction to it. ย But the stress of these health events caused an over-reaction in me that now makes a lot of sense! ย Because of this epiphany, the reason for all of the overwhelming feelings I was experiencing came clear. ย I realized I was feelingย all the repressed emotion of an abandoned toddler who was terrified that her parents were never coming back, who felt she was being punished in this crib in the hospital, who was confused about why all this was happening and it seemed like the end of the world. ย This hospitalization at an age where attachment is so crucial and separation anxiety is at a peak, my whole world crumbled and my security completely gone, I emerged from the hospital traumatized.

Now it took me a while to figure all of this out, but analytical and self-aware person that I am I was fascinated with the process, even though it required releasing these unbearably painful emotions that had been frozen in time, finally freeing me in their release. ย I believe that when traumas like this occur and never get worked through, they remain stuck in our bodies causing an energy blockage that can cause illness and disease (dis-ease). (Louise Hay and Dr. Christian Northrup–see Recommended Books.) ย Talking through this and releasing the pain and having my husband for a witness, I started feeling like I was finallyย healing from this ailment that had been chronically stressing me. ย Yay! ย It was shocking yet exhilarating for these facts about this trauma to be unearthed the way it occurred. ย So many unexplained fears that I have had started to make sense to me. ย Their origins were from this trauma that had been hidden from my memory my whole life. ย It was a post traumatic stress event that now has given way to new understanding of the origins of some of my irrational fears and insecurities. ย Now, I feel stronger and less fearful and I am healing those deep insecurities by releasing the pain and having someone witness and validate my feelings–a safe person that I trust completely. ย This is the process of inner child healing. ย I thought I had worked through all of my previous traumas but it turns out that I had one more vitally important trauma to work through.

At the time I was releasing the pain I felt it would go on forever and that I would never recover. ย I very soon felt better though as I released these fears that were from my childhood trauma. Releasing the emotions had to include my memories of clinging to my mother for dear life for years after this event, and my needs for security were not met and my trauma never acknowledged. ย She didn’t understand all the attention I gave her, clinging to her in fear like that. ย I laid in her lap on car trips and never left her side. ย Intuitively gifted even as a child, I took care of her emotional needs so that I would not feel rejected–after my unhealed trauma I couldn’t bear the thought of it, even though, I now understand thatย I was obedient and good out of extreme fear. ย I remember the stories of how she did not send me to kindergarten and a neighbor discovered my age and brightness and made it clear she must send me to school finally. ย I feel much gratefulness for that neighbor stepping in. ย My memories of how I flourished in those few months in kindergarten and how the teachers built me up and I was proud of myself are the memories I hold onto of my true self persevering and shining through.

If you have had some traumatic incidents like this in your childhood, and most HSPs surely have, I understand your pain. ย Writing out what happened and/or talking to a safe person is important. It helps to think back to a memory of a happy time before the age of 5 or 6 (5 or 6 is the age when we usually give up, (if you have a narcissistic parent or an unsupportive or unsafe environment or some trauma), and develop a false self to survive–Alice Miller). ย This memory is your true self making itself known to you. Thinking back to that moment can give you strength as to your positive happy potential. ย You can recover your true self again if you can see that you didn’t get the validation of your feelings that ย you deserved. Then finally release those painful emotions. ย The next time you over-react to stress or have a full-blown post traumatic stress episode you can look at it as a healing opportunity. ย Learn to recognize and release your painful feelings and then relate them back to the origins of when they occurredthisย  is how true healing occurs. ย Hopefully you can find a counselor or coach who has experience with inner child healing as a safe person to trust with your truth.

I had first remembered my mother’s comment about my early hospitalization with no emotion at all for that experience on the tiny sensitive child that I was. ย Now I have much compassion for the pain I experienced and that all infants and toddlers go through in these early childhood hospitalizations without parents present. ย Nowadays, doctors know not to keep parents from their children at these young ages when attachment and security is so crucial but back in the 60’s they hadn’t learned this yet. Thank goodness times are better now. ย I was encouraged to stay and sleep in the hospital room for several days with my first-born when he had pneumonia when he was 2. ย And my second born never left our room after she was born and I gave her first bath. I am grateful to have experienced such compassionate hospital experiences for my own children.

This ailment that I mentioned is still causing me stress even though it is beginning to heal. ย I won’t go into detail about it except that it is chronic pain, slow to heal, and it has become clear to me that it requires more of my attention, more rest, and I must make some adjustments in my activities. ย So unfortunately I must take a temporary leave of absence from this blog. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ ย You might call it a sabbatical because I am determined to return stronger than ever and with even more wisdom and insight to share. It is my hope that during this time you will support and answer each others comments since I will be unable to do so. ย This has already been happening by some regular commenters, which has been wonderful to see–when you reach out and support someone else who is hurting, the good feeling that you receive from helping others is exhilarating and wonderful. ย I hope that you will try it out and see what I mean. ๐Ÿ™‚

Warmest wishes and love to you all,

Roxanne