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A Healing Poem for Sensitive Souls with a Narcissistic Mother on 11-11.

Hello Everyone!  Many sensitive, and empathic souls and clients are having childhood wounds arise to the surface to be healed.  It can be a very painful experience.  It’s also an opportunity to heal and become stronger.  I hope this poem I wrote recently is helpful, uplifting, and supportive. If you resonate, please leave a comment and maybe we’ll create a tribe for support.  Welcome!

YOU WERE NEVER LOVED, MY DEAR (Healing Shame From Childhood Wounds)                By Roxanne Elaine Smith

When you had a narcissistic mom

Where’s the next hit coming from

Not a hit with fist or hand

But words and eyes that punch and land

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Devastating to your soul

Nothing solid to take hold

No mirror to see your worth

No smiles and comfort so you search

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You search for reasons, blame yourself

Shame and doubt instead of stealth

It robs you of the truth and time

You were sweet and so sublime

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You were shining, curious love

Sent to earth from up above

But chose the hardest path to start

A childhood starved from feeling part

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Everywhere you reached was blocked

So you gave up and heart was locked

Trust too much or not enough

Attracting all similar stuff

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Until you realize the pattern here

You were never loved, my dear

Start from scratch and loving you

Oh it is so hard to do

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At first because the triggers are

Relieving painful trauma jars

Shocking you right to your core

“How did I survive Oh Lord”

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You didn’t! No you gave up YOU

And turned into a mask not true

Obedient and needy so

People-please and perfection oh

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Trying oh so many things

Until your true voice finally sings

But shame comes up with every truth

The pattern hidden from your youth

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Every time you were you, you were shamed

Have to get YOU back again

Ignore the shame and keep on moving

Rise above shame and keep on grooving

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Yell at shame, you are not mine

Dance out shame, I am just fine

Shame keeps coming every time

Hiding doesn’t heal the crime

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Only way is to see the child

Inside the parents who went wild

Spilling out their pain on you

Everything it was not true

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You were perfect whole and right

Their fear and anguish like a blight

They felt safe because of you

Your light it was so bright it’s true

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Not fair of course you deserved the world

You knew that you could heal and unfurl

Figure it all out you would

And love yourself just as you should

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And finally learn strong boundaries

And attract those loving hercules

Those strong people, inner strength

Like you they’ve been put up to the brink

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The death of soul and now awake

They search for tribes to quell and quake

Masterful and sensitive

They forgive and give and give and give

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And you know you are one of them

And renewed hope on journey stems

Trying listening within

Trusting that love is what went dim

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Self compassion is your chore

As shame returns with each great score

Reducing size or is it growing

Heal emotions and new knowing

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Center, grounding, peace of mind

Solid forming, still maligned

Defensiveness and anger flare

But forgiving quicker in thin air

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Believing in the moment’s peace

That’s the truth not all the fleece

Still confusing childhood wounds

Where’s the love-so many moods

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Why the deep and painful purge

Feel relief when follow urge

Writing helps you flow it out

The truth is innocence about

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All of it you chose but why

More than you can fathom, sigh

Others seem to simply thrive

Private hell they do deny

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Good to have access to love

Reach for heaven up above

But also know you are whole and kind

Lovely you, you shine, shine, shine

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Then loved ones blame—it all comes back

Another painful self attack

Oh the grief you must allow

The child must cry it out oh wow

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Will the tears they ever stop

When your happy bubble popped

Self-reliant muscle test

You are getting strongest yet

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See yourself that child hugged

Held and cherished sweetest mug

Smiles and happy to see you

Healing all that you’ve been through

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It’s okay to cry a lot

Over things that most forgot

Disappointment to your core

Life goes on with all the sores

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Want them all to go away

Triggers say hello today

Do not put it all on you!

Bask in love all the day through

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When you find a sea of pain

That is someone else’s train

Let them drive on their own track

Do not let them take a snack

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Send them love and move along

You know how you are so strong

You do so much for others

Time to be your own best mother

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Nurture, comfort, love your soul

You are here to Rock n Roll

Everything is now alright

You are purely Love and Light

Original Poem © Roxanne E. Smith

 

With deep caring, comfort, and compassion,

Roxanne 😇💖✨

P.S. See more healing poems and writings here

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