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I Was Lost But Now I’ve Found Me

Hello Everyone!ย  Happy New Year, Everyone! Happy New Decade! Yay 2020!!! I hope you are doing well.ย  I hope you find hope in my sharing my journey of feeling lost to feeling found. I understand, I care, and I found ways to heal that perhaps can help you too.

 

10 years ago today I started this blog!ย  It was a new beginning for me as the blog helped me to find my voice as a writer; as a coach, mentor, and spiritual counselor for other highly sensitive souls and empaths with childhood wounds; and just …as a person, a soul, a human being on the planet! I did not realize I had started my blog at the beginning of a decade! I did not realize until yesterday how serendipitous and special it is that I started my blog at the beginning of the previous Decade!ย  Wow exactly 10 years ago! I was 48 then and felt kind of old and yet unaccomplished and green.ย  I am 58 now and I feel younger than I did at 48 …and in fact younger and happier than when I was in my 30s!ย  2020 vision and clarity is ahead for us all–a new hopeful path is emerging before our very eyes! I invite you to get out your journal or think back to january 2010 and look at how far you have come.ย  Please share your healing journey in the comments belowย  or if you resonate with realizing you started some positive changes or awarenesses in your life in 2010.

 

one whole decade

 

I found my true soul’s purpose as a result of writing this blog and an ability to express myself that had long been hidden inside me. When I started I had no idea how importantly the work I did on this blog would impact my life. I remember thinking, if I could just help one other person with what I’ve learned on my journey then this blog would be a success. Such a valuable thing to learn I think because I had low expectations so when the blog gained momentum and had lots of engagement it gave me so much confidence! The success of beginning my career as a life coach on the blog lead me to following my intuition and trusting my own inner guidance at deeper and deeper levels.

I was helping others through sharing my journey through a pen name at first–using my middle name, I was known as Elaine back then. At the height of my coaching career, I then started writing more and more songs, going to open mic nights, met musician friends in my area, and overcame my terrifying fear of singing alone on stage in public. I started performing around Indianapolis and getting paid for it and made an album of original songs that is on all the Worldwide music platforms such as iTunes, Spotify, and Amazon.

While I deeply loved my blog, my coaching and my clients, my heart was torn in 2 directions. I realized I had to put all my songs under my legal name and until then they had been divided–half were songs about inner child healing under the name of Elaine. When I changed my name on the blog and stopped writing as regularly, the blog audience changed and grew as I changed and grew. Even when I didn’t write for a few years on this blog, the old posts continued to get readers and new followers and I continued to get emails from grateful sensitive souls who felt their childhood wounds had been “seen” and their inner feelings “voiced”.

My journey took a spiritual turn as the intuitive abilities helped me realize many of my songs and blog posts had been “channeled” by me–I realized I was co-creating with the help of my higher self. My soul’s purpose grew to include being an energy healer, and the training and certification I received as a Reiki Practitioner in 2012 was fitting beautifully with my channeling abilities, and I attracted opportunities for office space to do this Reiki work and Intuitive work in Indianapolis. Now, in addition, the music and the Reiki are fitting together as I learn about sound healing and things like Reiki-infused music and music-infused Reiki. It is so amazing to me how life unfolds in ways that amaze but we somehow get glimpses of what could be, yet we don’t know how we can get to our dreams and yet the dreams unfold into yet even better dreams and magical abilities.

We also all have so many unexpected hardships along the way and think we are off track sometimes, but I believe it is these very hardships and side roads that make us stronger–strong enough for the next thing that our higher self has planned for us! The last 2 years have been an upheaval for me, revealing unhealthy patterns in me that I couldn’t see without some shake-ups and re-formulating in some very close relationships.

But it all makes sense now–if you have painful childhood wounds you need to relearn how to bond with people with pure love at the core. I have even more self-compassion for my wounds, even more strength to observe them and release them and grow stronger with each layer of emotional pain from the past that presents itself.

The result is a really strong foundation at my core, an independence and confidence to stand on my own 2 feet, and empowerment that is not codependent on a partner or children, or a role, or achievement in life but in a power of being that is centered, grounded, and wise with knowing that I am worthy of having it all just by being. And that we are all worthy of having it all and I LOVE helping others to get to this same feeling of wholeness and vitality and creative expression.

Whew! What a ride the last 10 years have been! The first 3 years of this blog contain the meatiest, most substantial posts in my opinion so I am going to be reblogging those posts on the day that they were posted 10 years ago as they come up. I will also be posting updates in the present day too interspersed with these older blog posts.

So here is the very first blog post from the first day I signed up for the wordpress site– I was back then just learning to navigate the brand new wordpress world (and with my very first laptop computer too–I was still just learning the computer) at that time–my youngest child was now settled in college.

The first post was lyrics to an original song that expressed the hope I felt at going from “lost” to “found”. Thank you to all of you who follow me and to any of you who have followed me from the very beginning, I am sending you big hugs!!! ๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’žI’d love a comment or a hello from you!! Please join me in celebrating my 10 year anniversary of teaching and learning self-compassion through this blog–all the way from Elaine to Roxanne Elaine. I will continue to write here to share my journey to comfort and encourage all who resonate with this community of Hope and Healing. I’m so grateful to all of you who read my blog. Again I THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart and the depths of my soul.

Wishing you a wonderful Happy New Year Celebration!! ๐ŸŽ‰๐Ÿ™Œ Yay!! It’s 2020!!๐Ÿคฉ

A new Beginning for us all.

Party like 1999

Sending you comfort, caring, inner peace, love and light,

and Encouragement to Enjoy Life, and Permission to Party!!

Look how far you’ve come!! ๐Ÿ˜ƒ๐Ÿ’ƒ๐Ÿ•บโฃ๏ธ

Roxanne โœŒ๏ธ๐Ÿ˜‡๐ŸŽถ๐Ÿ’–โœจ

 

Hope and Healing Haven

My very first post, Dec. 30, 2009:ย 

I Was Lost But Now Iโ€™ve Found Me

Lyrics by Roxanne Smith

I am strong but they canโ€™t see me

I am wise but they canโ€™t hear me

I am kind but they canโ€™t feel me

I was lost but now Iโ€™ve found me

I can see the truth in me

I can feel the love in thee

I can have the strength I lost begin again

Your belief in me makes me free

CHORUS

I am sad and you are there to hold me

I am weak and you are there to guide me

I am scared and you are there to love me

I was lost but now Iโ€™ve found me

I can be all that I can be

Overcome the fear they gave me

When all I feel is lost and unaware

You are there to say you care

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About my Reiki Energy Healing Sessions–Distance Reiki is Available too!

Hi Everyone! โ€œWhatโ€™s this Reiki I keep hearing about?! Sounds very woo woo to me.โ€ I understand if you feel this way. I used to feel that way too. Life has a way of getting us ready to open up to new concepts that can help us. You may have heard that everything is energy. Itโ€™s true! Sometimes we have energy blockages in our bodies so our natural self-healing abilities get โ€œStuckโ€. I happen to have a gift of being able to feel energy. Through training, experience, and this gift I am able to be a vessel through which healing energy flows through and into the bodyโ€”this helps to get the clientโ€™s energy flowing again where there were blockages. The results from a 30 minute reiki session can vary from instant pain relief, to feeling deep relaxation and better sleep, to a more subtle feeling of a shift inside of feeling seen and cared for with physical ease showing up in the days ahead. The results vary per person and can even continue to show up for up to 2 weeks. I always tell clients to drink lots of water and be very kind to yourself in the days following each treatment. You donโ€™t have to be spiritual or even believe in it for it to workโ€”youโ€™ll see results if you are just open to your own bodies ability to heal being accelerated by the Reiki session. At the minimum youโ€™ll feel relaxed, rejuvenated, recharged, and reset while underneath it all your bodyโ€™s energy is starting to flow in big healthy ways. 30 minute sessions are $65. Once a month sessions can get you to a continued flowing state which will lead you to better health, energy, and optimum vitality!

So just reach out if you are interested in a session. It might be just what your body/mind/ and soul is ready for!ย  Indianapolis location is:
Dragonfly 360 Yoga & Wellness phone# is 317-818-1800.

Distance Reiki sessions are available!!ย  My email is Hopesinger11@gmail.com.
My Reiki page: https://www.hspsurvivors.com/about_reiki.html

Sending you healing light,ย ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ’–โœจ
Roxanne

P.S. I apologize I did not get a post written for the entire month of September! What a roller coaster of a month!–my husband and I both had birthdays and I was preparing for a big Solo performance–my first performance in 11 months and my first Solo show in 2 years!ย  Here is the link to a video of one of the original songs from this latest show which was on Sept. 20, 2019 at Bier Brewery North in Carmel, Indiana: Click here=> https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P_dmcuufQuo.

I’ll be sharing more videos of my original Folk Rock Songs For the Soul here on this blog occasionally. These songs are meant to uplift, encourage, support, empower, and comfort and HEAL your sensitive soul–just like my sessions, and all I strive to do!

I hope you had a good September. I’m riding the cosmic waves of ascension and spirit right along with you. ๐Ÿ˜‡๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ’–โœจย  I’m excited to see what October brings and I’ll be in touch again soon!ย  Reach out if you’d like a session with me!ย  Email me at Hopesinger11@gmail.com. I’m also on my Facebook page http://facebook.com/HigherGroundHaven alot these days too–I hope to see you there!

Sending you all so much Love and Light,

Roxanne

New Weekly Channeled Angel Messages: Comfort For Empaths and Lightworkers During Ascension

Channeled Angel Messagesย โœจ๐Ÿ˜‡๐Ÿ’–โœจWeekly!

Hello Everyone!ย  These messages are to be shared for all who resonate and are open to receiving spiritual guidance.ย  This includes Empaths, Highly Sensitive People (HSPs), Lightworkers, Spiritually Awakening Souls, Earth Angels, and to all Seekers and Open-hearted souls.

This blog post is taken from my Channeled Angel Messages Page on my blog that has 13 posts of angel messages that I am now posting there weekly.ย  There you will find all the other messages from my 6 archangel guides (most of the time it is 6 but it changes) that I have posted since November, 2018. Please comment if you like receiving the angel messages in my blog posts. I’d love to hear from you.

Peace and Love to you,

Roxanne Elaine Smith ๐Ÿ’—

July 15, 2019

Dear Gorgeous Sensitive Souls, we are greeting you this way because some of you are not feeling so beautiful right now and we want to reassure you that you are and so much more than you can imagine.ย ย Your brilliant light and healing abilities are vast and strong and your ability to tap into the beauty and bliss of existence is very real. Often you get bogged down from being around others and donโ€™t even realize the negativity is not yours.ย ย Other times you are triggered by the insensitivity of loved ones and your own unhealed wounds come up to the surface.ย ย Often this makes you feel shocked at the depth of your wounds about feeling safe.ย ย You know that you need to feel safe at a basic level.ย 

The good news is that this is happening so that you can now begin to create this safety for yourself from the inside out.ย ย Until you know about these unsafety feelings that have been long hidden inside, you canโ€™t heal them.ย ย So your higher self is guiding you to these situations where you have to face these needs for safety that were never properly formed in your childhood or you may have root chakra damage from past lives that has not been resolved that is playing out in this lifetime.ย 

This happens if you died tragically in a past life for being persecuted for many reasons and one example is for being accused of being a witch. Or you may have been an outspoken or rebellious woman or man who did not follow the rules of your time and were trying to help others in some way. The list of possibilities is long.ย ย Deep feelings of untrust and injustice and not being able to speak your truth may all be coming up to be healed and resolved in this life. You may be clearing throat chakras issues in this case.ย ย If it all feels like too much to decipher and bear please take a break from figuring it all out and be really kind to yourself right now. Often the weekends are when conflicts arise because we have the time and our higher self knows it.ย ย Try to trust that your higher self will not give you more than you can handle.ย 

If you can write in the mornings to get back in touch with your true loving nature and clear out your disappointment, then the rest of your day will go so much better.ย ย We see how strong you are, how amazing you are when you speak out about thingsโ€”when your words are twisted or not received well, you are hard on yourself and forget that what you were saying is/was very accurate. Your are right and you are right most of the timeโ€”people who manipulate and downplay your words are just showing their insecurities and fear.ย ย It is disguised as power but it is born out of fear of not being good enough.ย ย You also have roots of not being good enough that you are clearing out.

You are now knowing you are good enough so you expect loved ones to be a cheerleader for you and you may be shocked and disappointed when they are not.ย ย You would never not be a cheerleader so then you blame yourself for not choosing people in your life who are not cheerleaders. Please know that what gifts you bring to the planet, of creativity and high vibration, cause a healing crisis in other people sometimes and it is all unconscious to themโ€”they donโ€™t know why they react the way they do. Think of yourselves as magic healers walking around bringing up others unhealed wounds sometimes.ย ย Think of yourselves like Glenda the Good Witch floating around with a smile and beauty and a powerful wandโ€”we hope this brings a smile to your face.ย ย It may seem silly but if you are feeling victimized instead of seeing that you are healing, this image can really help you to heal.ย 

Of course Glenda has a magic bubble to get away and you canโ€™t float away in your human world but you absolutely have the power to put a protective bubble around yourself at any time with just your imagination and intention.ย ย Itโ€™s best to imagine this amazing bubble of yours to allow love and light and bliss to flow out to others but no negativity may enter. There are many ways you may imagine your bubbleโ€”you may like to create it to have a mirrored exterior shining outward so that when negativity approaches, it sees itself and runs away. We want this to be fun for you to experiment with.ย 

We are also wanting to lighten your heavy mood that stems from having absorbed negativity from elsewhere. Innately your energy is all love and light and so you can ask your guides and angels to lift off any energy that is not yours at any time. We want to help and we remind you that you must ask for our help in order for us to do things like this. We love you so much, dear ones, and we want you to be excited about who you are and your abilities to manifest your desires that are in the highest good for your soul. In order for your dreams to come true the lower vibrational repressed emotions from childhood must be cleared out.

Right now you may have anger to be cleared outโ€”it might be causing a blockage in the heart and solar plexus chakrasโ€”imagine the frustration of not having a voice to say no to abuse and injustice and since you are healing and getting stronger and some good things are happening in your life, it makes sense that repressed anger from the past would come up to the surface to be healed.ย ย You may find you have exploded at someone recently or wanted to and perhaps you are shocked at the rage that you feel. We want you to know you can release this anger in harmless ways by several techniques. One is by writing all the rage out at someone in a letter and do not hold back and tell the truth of the depth of your rageโ€”and then burn it of course (in a private releasing ceremony if youโ€™d like) or shred it because this would be damaging for anyone else to actually read.

Also hitting a mattress as hard as you can as often as you need to to release this anger out of your body.ย ย Thirdly, saying or yelling what you wish you could say to an abuser or unfair situation into a pillow to muffle the sound. We do not want you to hurt your vocal chords of course so alternate these different techniques as you feel guided.ย ย We want you to look at this as a healing exercise and notice the relief that you feel.ย ย We do not need to tell you that unleashing anger onto a person would be harmful as well as lower your vibration and only cause you to feel remorseโ€”but humans do have this big reaction at times so if by chance you do have an angry outburst on another it will do wonders to genuinely apologize for any words that diminished the other person in any way. If you were just loud out of frustration that is okay occasionally although you may find that yelling just triggers others and they may not be as mindful as you in their choice of words back to you which may trigger you in return.ย 

So you can see that staying calmโ€”speaking your truth in a calm tone such as saying: โ€œI know who I am, and what is being said about me here is incorrectโ€ or โ€œI do not want to be treated this wayโ€ and walk away is the beginning of finding your voice and strength to standing in your power and ending co-dependence on others approval.ย ย We see that many of you are getting your independent legs and we are so proud of you.ย ย Do not be discouraged if it has taken you a long time to get to where you can see with clarity that you are treated less than fairly in your love relationships too. Do not be too quick to throw this relationship away because all that may need to happen is for you to calmly say โ€œNo Iโ€™โ€™m not going to allow you to talk to me like thatโ€”Maybe you should go take a walk and calm downโ€ or something to that effect. We know this is easier said than done but we want you to see the progress you are making that we seeโ€”and be cheerleaders for yourselves to continue to grow in your strength as sensitive caring souls who only want to help.ย 

You will get more respect from the divine masculine partner when you stay calm and speak strongly and forcefully rather than cry and yell from a feeling of victimization. Forgive yourselves for occasional outbursts, you are human and itโ€™s okay and may even be eye opening for you to see the hidden inner wound in you that needs to be healed. To be blamed or criticized or mocked or betrayed are all things you mustnโ€™t stand for and you must speak up aboutโ€”you will find your words in time.ย ย Marriage counseling called Imago Relationship Therapy can be very helpful if you are having marital struggles with someone who is very much still in 3D and acting from their egoโ€”because the principle is that you each are attracted to the very person who will bring up your childhood wounds so that you can heal them.ย 

We have talked about marital struggles here because we want you to see that it is often through relationships that we grow the most because your partners show you where the pain lies.ย ย Optimally you can come to an agreement with your partner that you both need to provide a safe space for you each to heal your own wounds and honor and respect each others needs for time alone to process after an argument. This is difficult if you have abandonment wounds and a deep need to feel connected to another person in order to feel loved.ย ย This is very hard and you may have PTSD with these wounds as the basis.ย ย Asking your partner to just hold you at times can help tremendously in healing the early childhood wounds of not being held enough. Know that you are a gift to any partner you choose because you are pure loveโ€”knowing this deep in your soul will help you heal your own abandonment wounds.

If you are single with abandonment wounds you are healing it every day that you take care of yourself and are not looking for someone else to complete you.ย ย You are complete and whole and we are especially proud of you learning to love yourself and look deeply inward to see that the wounds can be healed with your own self-compassion and finding your voice by journaling or reaching out to a trusted sensitive, and experienced counselor. Trust your heart to know youโ€™ve found the right person to help.ย ย Always remember you can talk to us anytime and ask for guidance and be open to the answers coming to you in your mind as new insights and ideasโ€”of course writing to us in a journal is another way of receiving insights that very may well seem like your own ideas but we are helping in a way that may not be obvious.ย 

This is the beginning of trusting your intuition and this muscle will grow stronger with use.ย ย So we leave you today with much advice about healing your inner wounds and your relationship conflictsโ€”this is because we want you to know you are not being punished by these difficulties happening in your lives right nowโ€”much to the contrary, these conflicts are providing you with opportunities to see clearly where your wounds are and how you can heal them to feel strong no matter what happens in your life.ย ย This inner strength is what is already inside you, we can see it, but you are just beginning to see it.ย 

Having inner strength is all you need to manifest your dreams and even future treasures that your higher self has planned for you that you can not even imagine. Trust that the universe is in your favor always at all times. Easier times are ahead as you clear out and acknowledge and release the hardest wounds from your past.ย ย We send you comfort and hugs and butterfly kisses for your wounded inner child. Until next time, be gentle on yourselves, AA Muriel (Empaths), AA Chamuel (Comfort), AA Jophiel (Creativity and Beauty), AA Sandalphon (Grounding and Music), AA Uriel (Wisdom), and AA Azriel (Grief, Loss, and Transitions)