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A Healing Poem for Sensitive Souls with a Narcissistic Mother on 11-11.

Hello Everyone!  Many sensitive, and empathic souls and clients are having childhood wounds arise to the surface to be healed.  It can be a very painful experience.  It’s also an opportunity to heal and become stronger.  I hope this poem I wrote recently is helpful, uplifting, and supportive. If you resonate, please leave a comment and maybe we’ll create a tribe for support.  Welcome!

YOU WERE NEVER LOVED, MY DEAR (Healing Shame From Childhood Wounds)                By Roxanne Elaine Smith

When you had a narcissistic mom

Where’s the next hit coming from

Not a hit with fist or hand

But words and eyes that punch and land

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Devastating to your soul

Nothing solid to take hold

No mirror to see your worth

No smiles and comfort so you search

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You search for reasons, blame yourself

Shame and doubt instead of stealth

It robs you of the truth and time

You were sweet and so sublime

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You were shining, curious love

Sent to earth from up above

But chose the hardest path to start

A childhood starved from feeling part

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Everywhere you reached was blocked

So you gave up and heart was locked

Trust too much or not enough

Attracting all similar stuff

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Until you realize the pattern here

You were never loved, my dear

Start from scratch and loving you

Oh it is so hard to do

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At first because the triggers are

Relieving painful trauma jars

Shocking you right to your core

“How did I survive Oh Lord”

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You didn’t! No you gave up YOU

And turned into a mask not true

Obedient and needy so

People-please and perfection oh

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Trying oh so many things

Until your true voice finally sings

But shame comes up with every truth

The pattern hidden from your youth

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Every time you were you, you were shamed

Have to get YOU back again

Ignore the shame and keep on moving

Rise above shame and keep on grooving

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Yell at shame, you are not mine

Dance out shame, I am just fine

Shame keeps coming every time

Hiding doesn’t heal the crime

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Only way is to see the child

Inside the parents who went wild

Spilling out their pain on you

Everything it was not true

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You were perfect whole and right

Their fear and anguish like a blight

They felt safe because of you

Your light it was so bright it’s true

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Not fair of course you deserved the world

You knew that you could heal and unfurl

Figure it all out you would

And love yourself just as you should

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And finally learn strong boundaries

And attract those loving hercules

Those strong people, inner strength

Like you they’ve been put up to the brink

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The death of soul and now awake

They search for tribes to quell and quake

Masterful and sensitive

They forgive and give and give and give

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And you know you are one of them

And renewed hope on journey stems

Trying listening within

Trusting that love is what went dim

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Self compassion is your chore

As shame returns with each great score

Reducing size or is it growing

Heal emotions and new knowing

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Center, grounding, peace of mind

Solid forming, still maligned

Defensiveness and anger flare

But forgiving quicker in thin air

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Believing in the moment’s peace

That’s the truth not all the fleece

Still confusing childhood wounds

Where’s the love-so many moods

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Why the deep and painful purge

Feel relief when follow urge

Writing helps you flow it out

The truth is innocence about

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All of it you chose but why

More than you can fathom, sigh

Others seem to simply thrive

Private hell they do deny

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Good to have access to love

Reach for heaven up above

But also know you are whole and kind

Lovely you, you shine, shine, shine

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Then loved ones blame—it all comes back

Another painful self attack

Oh the grief you must allow

The child must cry it out oh wow

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Will the tears they ever stop

When your happy bubble popped

Self-reliant muscle test

You are getting strongest yet

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See yourself that child hugged

Held and cherished sweetest mug

Smiles and happy to see you

Healing all that you’ve been through

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It’s okay to cry a lot

Over things that most forgot

Disappointment to your core

Life goes on with all the sores

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Want them all to go away

Triggers say hello today

Do not put it all on you!

Bask in love all the day through

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When you find a sea of pain

That is someone else’s train

Let them drive on their own track

Do not let them take a snack

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Send them love and move along

You know how you are so strong

You do so much for others

Time to be your own best mother

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Nurture, comfort, love your soul

You are here to Rock n Roll

Everything is now alright

You are purely Love and Light

Original Poem © Roxanne E. Smith

 

With deep caring, comfort, and compassion,

Roxanne 😇💖✨

P.S. See more healing poems and writings here

Good News For Highly Sensitive People Who Are Awakening–You Can Do It!

Hello Highly Sensitive Souls! How is it possible that it is the end of May!  It’s gone so fast but now the warm weather is finally here in my part of the midwest, so I’m not complaining–I’m just in awe of the speed of time that seems to be passing!  Wow!  At the same time though I feel like a different person since January of 2019–I’ve done so much more unexpected inner work and self growth and now I’m excited to be where I’m at!  I am experiencing so much clarity and positive energy from my inner guidance to help others at a new higher level!

There is so much to feel hopeful about my dear sensitive friends.  You are exactly the way you are for a reason and you have a spirit guide and angels cheering you forward 24/7.  There may be times that you feel that they are not there and your wounds from childhood seem to be driving the bus so to speak. Please know that these wounds must come up to the surface to be cleared out and that you are healing.  Every single day you are healing!  Know that your higher self is taking you by the shoulders and helping you through each obstacle in life with the intent to make you stronger!  You got this!  You can do it!  You are loved from above.  And I’m here to help you know it and believe it and believe in yourself and your creative gifts.

I love being a cheerleader for highly sensitive souls because I understand so much now from my own journey.  I am so grateful for my intuitive gifts that have lead me to be able to have conversations now with my guides and angels and higher self.  I have honed the skill of automatic writing to where I can connect easily now and get answers.  My journey started out with so much pain and heartache as a child–being highly sensitive with abandonment wounds left me feeling so codependent on others–I didn’t even realize it–I thought I had worked through everything but no there was still more underneath some illusions that were protecting me.  But now all that is behind me and I am feeling so independent and whole.  Whatever healing seems unsurmountable to you at the moment please know that it can be done.  Whatever doubts you have about your ability to attract the life of your dreams are just words you heard from elsewhere ingrained in you from someone who may have just been jealous of your bright light,  You can learn to over-ride all self doubts with positive affirmations and self-belief and self love.

I have just channeled a new angel message, wrote a new song, and wrote a new poem all in the last 2 weeks.  I’m on a roll and I know how to unblock myself for good now. For those of you who are awakening to spirituality and are craving some good news, please check out my YouTube channel to see my angel message videos.  Go to this link=>https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCXg27-Lzvcffrr7lf6DRIfg.

Slowly I’ll be putting myself on the videos as I feel ready–right now it is just my voice reading the messages I have channeled.  I am following my guidance to share these messages hopefully weekly now to give comfort to empaths, highly sensitive people, lightworkers, and earth angels and awakening souls. Have a wonderful week! I care and I am here to cheer you on to love yourself and take good care of yourself.  You are on your way!

With love and light,

Roxanne 😇💖✨

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