Hello everyone! I just completed making a video of my very first Channeled Angel Message. This is kind of an experiment for me–I’m not sure if this is the format I’ll be using for all future videos of this sort but it was very fun putting it together. My plan is to share these on my YouTube Channel for that audience but I thought I’d share it here first. The entire message is also below this video.
Channeled Angel Message 1-12-19
“Dear Ones, You are so loved. If you only knew the brilliance of your own light—the perfection of your being. Your soul has a purpose that may be unknown to you at this time but if you take the time to listen to your heart and write out your soul’s desire, you will begin to know yourself. As you love, nurture, and comfort yourself you will heal those deep layers of pain that are keeping you from stepping into your wholeness and vitality to be all that you can be.
We are with you, Dear Ones, shining light and comfort down on you on those times you feel most alone and afraid. If you can believe in love from above and open to receive our comfort it will help you so much. As light workers you chose to come onto earth at this time as co-creators with us the Angels who are always hovering near you. Your compassionate ways may seem unappreciated by those around you but if you can remember and write and share with others who are open to such spiritual messages, you’ll be spreading hope in ways you can’t imagine.
No-one else is exactly like you but many, who are on similar journeys and just beginning, will so benefit from your wisdom. Keep writing. Keep creating from the joy in your heart and share it with others without fear. The fear of persecution from others is old and we reassure you that the benefits will far exceed any backlash you receive. If you are afraid to be different well, My Dear, you already are and it is what it is for a good reason. Goodness and light exudes from you in a way that affects others in a positive way whether it’s positive feelings being around you or pushing their repressed pain up to the light in an explosive way. This is not for you to decipher or feel responsible for but just know healing is happening.
If you get negative energy back from anyone know it is not about you and it is just a projection of this inner unconscious unlooked-that world. All pain needs to be looked at in order to heal and be released. This is a role that is not for the faint of heart. You are not faint of heart. You are all heart and you are strong enough for this role. By changing the way you view criticisms of you, you can change your life. Criticisms of you are actually criticisms of the person criticizing you—their own self-judgments projected outward.
How to handle this? Smile with your inner knowing of the real truth. Either walk away or show them compassion if you are in a strong place. Let the negativity flow through you and not stick. Transmute it into Mother Earth or up to Heaven it doesn’t matter keep the energy moving flowing and healed and dissolved by love.
Shining your light really is healing. Perhaps you’ve encountered people drawn to you lately and even asking for a hug from you while others seem to treat you as if you are invisible. They actually make themselves invisible from their own true essence—a true and complete disconnect and so you are feeling their invisibility and self-loathing. Know it’s not yours. The work of knowing the voice of your inner critic is so helpful. Yes, you know this.
But you didn’t know your inner critic is alive in you because you absorbed the inner critic of those around you in your foundational childhood years and you internalized it and believed it. Now you know better. You can give yourself the love you never received and deserved. Yes every child deserves love and care and to be uplifted to see their gifts and potential. You can re-frame, re-program, re-parent, and re-live the childhood you never had—Regain the childlike trust you missed out on. Live now with more childlike exuberance, joy, and curiosity and express yourself without fear.
Know your childlike exuberance is much needed on the planet as you express it without fear of ridicule and shame. Yes, you may have been shamed for shining your light as a child but now you see their fear, their shame that they felt safe to put on you. Only because of your light, My Dear Earthbound Angels, only because of your light.
Archangel Muriel here,
sending you hugs and love and comfort so deep you feel it down to your toes.
We angels are just a thought away
Just open to us and get out of the way
To receive our message especially for you
So you can heal and heal others too.
Until we meet again,
If you are interested in scheduling private sessions for Akashic Record Readings, or Angel Readings, Distance Reiki or Life Coaching sessions please email me at firstname.lastname@example.org.
Please give me feedback about the video. Was it too fast or too slow? Was the music annoying or not your cup of tea? Any tips to change how I present these channelings to the people who enjoy them would be very helpful.
With love and light,
How To Soothe My Soul
By Roxanne Smith
January 14, 2019
Pain in my heart. Follow it through.
What is this all about. Is it me or you?
I want to run away. …want to be left alone.
Am I the only one… who wants to stay in bed
… and write a song! 😀 lol
Okay here’s the healing part: Pain has a voice.
It’s just a messenger. I have a choice.
I can look at it… and see where it’s from.
I can love the one who was made wrong.
And if I realize my innocence
My intentions were good….
It’s not my fault and
I did what I thought I should.
Everyone needs love. Give yourself a break.
Imagine the little boy or girl whose heart still aches.
They long for the words “It’s gonna be okay,
I will always be here for you … every single day.”
And if I realize my innocence
My intentions were good….
It’s not my fault and
I did what I thought I should.
Take it all away and leave the LOVE
Take the doubt and leave comfort from above
Lift me up. Make me whole.
No more feeling like a fool.
I am learning how to soothe my soul.
I am learning how to soothe my soul.
I am learning how to soothe my soul. ( last time slow)
Original song © 2019 Roxanne Smith
It’s been 6 months since I’ve written a new Song of Hope and Healing. Yay! My creativity is really flowing right now in every area–blogging, music, channeled messages, and intuitive guidance for myself and others. I always feel immediately better when I stop and write a song like this when I’m feeling some negativity that seems to come from out of the blue. And the melody that flowed out is extra good with this one. I hope to have a video of me singing and playing guitar with it soon (or at least audio) and I will post it here as well as on my YouTube channel.
I wrote this song a week ago but it mirrored what I was feeling today. Today, I’ve got so many wonderful creative ideas but I also feel like I am clearing out a lot of root chakra debris and it’s sometimes heavy–like a wet blanket.
That makes sense because as a highly sensitive child I absorbed and believed those around me who were sometimes “wet blankets on the hopes and dreams of others”. I internalized the negativity and blamed myself as a child. Now I can visually lift off the wet blanket of negativity that was never mine and be restored to my true nature of positivity and creative hopefulness! You can too! I hope my words have been helpful to you. Have a great day!!
With love and light,
Hello Everyone! It’s January 2nd! Feels like a Monday but it’s Wednesday. Feels like a brand spankin’ new beginning! And it is! I’m fired up!–in a positive-anger, fed up, determined sort of way! I wasn’t fired up when I first woke up–being my day off, I woke up with HUGE childhood pain. Bigger than ever! In my face!–heart, solar plexus, every darn chakra really! The kind of childhood pain where you can’t function–you are just a tiny abandoned toddler feeling completely in despair and giving up in order to survive. I’m like WTF! Excuse my language but like I said I am fired up and want to share the raw truth lol!
I had been so hopeful about the new year and Oh boy what a way to start out! I learned a long time ago how to nurture myself instead of spiral with negative feelings so I pulled out my journal to write. I couldn’t even write much because I’m still so exhausted from the holidays and from being an empath and all that goes with that (all that is for another post). I realized my eyes were terribly, unusually sore! I sleep in my contacts and have to put new contacts in every 6 days–I take one day per week and give my eyes a rest. I couldn’t even get my contacts out!–my eyes were too sore to remove them but I had to try. I thought “okay, I’m grateful I have the day off to heal–just take my contacts out ( a day early which is weird) and give my eyes a rest …Give my body, mind, and soul a rest.”
Even though I have a gazillion things on my list to-do today that I didn’t get done over the holidays, I told myself I am going to listen to my body and weary eyes and give my eyes and body a rest. I got my contacts out and then I spontaneously just …cried. I cried HARD, deep hard crying from the core of my being! Not despairing or feeling sorry for myself but just FREEDOM to cry because like “I was never allowed to cry as a child and damn it today I’m gonna do whatever the hell I want–I’m a friggin’ adult with a day off to recharge and if I feel like crying all day then I’ll do that because I can!–that kind of crying!! Lol.
It lasted only for a few minutes and it was profound–I felt a ton better and had unusual clarity sooner than usual ( I had cried more and longer over the holidays healing some wounds that had been triggered but this was different). This came with clarity! This came with a powerful glimpse of …something.
When I took my contacts out I had this sorry-for-myself feeling that I need to wear contacts for being far-sighted–like “Geez, I can’t even see anymore, man, I am getting old. Then I had this flash of being BLIND!–of going blind and the despair of the loss of my sight caused me to feel, for an instant, like I wouldn’t want to LIVE anymore if that happened! It was a split second “gift” and then I was instantly so grateful for my eyesight and the clarity of “Oh wow, things could be so much worse! Thank God I have my sight–I can rest and recharge and heal my eyes when so many people have it worse than I do.” I was reminded of all the chronic pain I used to have at times and thankfully I no longer have–I had forgotten how I had promised myself, if and when I heal from this chronic pain, I will never take my health or life for granted.
Okay, you get where I am going here … but that was just the start of it! I got some clarity and a reminder of my true purpose of helping others because of what I have overcome. So let’s get right down to the raw truth! Yeah I want to help others because for what ever reason I CAN! The childhood pain staring me in the face this morning was my abandonment wound from my childhood. As if I was re-experiencing it–it was impossible to deny–I was right back there–age 1 1/2 in a hospital crib (cage) with no parents or loved ones to comfort me for days on end. It was then that I stopped trusting the Universe that I’d be okay. I experienced terror for days at the fragile age of attachment and it never got healed. It explains so much! And I am strong enough, for the first time, to feel all of it now!!
In my wisdom and coaching and successes in life there has always been this limit that I’ve had. Don’t criticize me too much, don’t blame me, don’t leave me, don’t hurt me because oh the bottom may fall out and cause me to feel all that I cannot bear to feel because–it killed me! By age 5 the “too talkative singing and dancing child” finally gave up. Rejected again, I hid in a closet, my soul went dormant–the trauma was repressed–the pain numbed out with beliefs and illusions and bargains only a tiny child can make. ” I am not safe alone–I must please others to be taken care of–I am not worthy of love as I am, so I must conform to get the love I need to survive–life is painful and scary alone–I need others to take care of me–I promise to be obedient if you will just be kind to me–maybe if I’m perfect then you will love me etc.”
Sure successes and experiences in later life healed some of these beliefs, but the deepest ones are often buried deep with the deepest of the pain. It is pure rage! I hated them for not having the wisdom to know how much they were injuring my trust in “life”! My soul knew it was cruel to abandon a child–how could they not KNOW the damage they are doing!! I (my highly evolved compassionate soul) would never cause such pain in such a tiny helpless being whose cries were begging for love but repeatedly ignored.
I’ll jump to the end here (because I could write WAY too much on this subject right now lol). With my soul’s spiritual awakening and unquenchable thirst for knowledge about the highest truth in the Universe, I know now that I CHOSE for this to happen to me! (It was validated by years ago reading the book, Journey of Souls–Case Studies of Life Between Lives By Michael Newton, Ph.D.)
I know that sounds crazy, why in the world would any soul choose to have a horrific trauma happen to them right at the beginning of their soul’s incarnation–a trauma so terrifying to a sensitive soul that it completely breaks them–makes them into a compliant, obedient, spineless shell of a person with no access to their gifts, their light, their energy, and no ability to relax and have fun and trust that life is a kind and loving place to just BE. Yep I chose it! I also chose a lot of other events and people in my life that would slowly open me back up to trusting life and my feelings and my vitality again.
My higher self, while in heaven, before I incarnated, along with the knowledge that I would have free will to choose how these things played out I chose many things to evolve as a soul. I chose an adult friend of the family to buy me a journal at age 14 so I could start writing about my feelings in self discovery–the very beginning of finding my voice. I chose relationships that would break me open to find my own strength and desire to go to college. I chose an education in child and family services to educate myself on what a child needs to be emotionally healthy in each and every developmental stage. I chose a significant other in life who experienced a similar plight in childhood so he could empathize but had a tougher resolve and a warrior spirit to go out into the rat race and pay the bills so I could raise our 2 gifted children. I chose being a stay-at-home mom so I could re-experience life through my children’s eyes and heal my inner child in the process. Since my soul/higher self was a gifted writer and singer (my dream since before age 5), I chose circumstances that allowed me time alone to write about my feelings and healing journey and read self-help books on how to heal the blocks to my own creativity and become the singer-songwriter I was meant to ultimately become.
I believe I chose it all so I could write songs and poetry about overcoming deep pain from childhood and shine my light of compassion on other souls who have had a similar plight. I even chose for my closest relationships to trigger me so that I can heal any remnants of my dormant pain and step into my full power as a woman. This is where I am at now!
It’s all in how you look at it. I could totally be resentful and be saying to myself, “Oh my lord what now!” or I can say I trust my higher self knew that I am strong enough for all that is happening to me! I am a nurturer and comforter by nature so damn it I am going to nurture and comfort the heck out of myself right now more than ever!! That’s easier said than done when all you feel is terror and as if you are being abandoned! Meanwhile I’m having to step out of my comfort zone in my life and also face and heal my deepest abandonment wound pain.
More things I have chosen that helped me: I chose to have such debilitating food allergies and ill-health and chronic fatigue in my 30s that I had to discover a pretty extreme anti-inflammatory diet that made me feel like a new person energy-wise. I stuck to it out of necessity and now at the wise old age of 57, I look and feel like I am 38. Which is such a blessing because I am just getting started with my career as a singer-songwriter and life coach/spiritual counselor/ and akashic record reader. I’m more physically fit than ever and my adrenal fatigue issues are almost completely resolved.
There’s much more I could tell you about what I chose but I want to get to my real point of writing this post. And it is this: My heart breaks for those highly sensitive souls out there who have chosen to incarnate here at this time on earth and feel completely broken from those early years in life. Perhaps they are here to help the planet with their light and compassion as well but don’t have the resources or time to get the healing they need, the counseling, schooling, or there are no kind and gentle souls around them to validate them as empaths, see their giftedness as I do. They may have no-one to understand that they are working at a job that is way beneath their abilities and intelligence but it is all they can handle due to the unresolved childhood pain that leaves them re-traumatized–with each thing in life that leaves them feeling like crawling back under the rock of safety in their small apartments, or small jobs, or small dreams. I have felt this way too!
Somehow in all my reading and time alone, I realized I had the gift of intuition and I learned how to hone it in to my benefit–I learned to listen to my own inner guidance by getting out of my head and into my heart with my special techniques of automatic writing. Eventually, by learning to tune in the helpful guidance from my spirit guide and angels, and the higher realms of the Akashic Records, I heard myself being guided to ask my significant other in my life, “Please just hold me, I need to be held. I was not held and loved enough as a child and being held feels really healing to me.” This has been powerful for me and it works!
Sometimes when your partner, who is very different from you, says something that just makes you feel way too angry and rightfully rejecting, it can be so helpful to just realize you wouldn’t be so angry if you had been held and comforted every time you needed it as a child. So instead of pushing your partner away with anger and tear-filled victimized cries of “how can you be so insensitive when you know more than anyone how sensitive I am” (am I right?! lol)–Instead you can calmly say, perhaps after walking away and cooling off, come back and say “I feel really triggered by what you said because of my childhood. Could you please just hold me and let me cry–I wasn’t held enough or allowed to cry as a child and that would be really healing for me.” The divine masculine often loves just being given something helpful to do! This is often a win-win for both partners. It is powerfully healing!
But those time when you can’t be held by someone else, we still have times when our unbearable pain comes up! (either from this childhood or our past lives where we were persecuted for being “different” because our lights were shining too brightly). Those times are when perhaps this blog can help you feel like you are not alone and that is why I am writing about this raw content today. We highly sensitive souls all need deep connection and understanding–being seen and validated has made all the difference in my life. I feel this is part of my gift to the planet–to create a safe haven where gifted sensitives who feel downtrodden can feel seen and uplifted to the beautiful, shining lights that they are. You are so special. You are just wounded and those wounds can heal. But first you must bring them to the light–up to the surface where they can be seen. Perhaps if things are really hard right now, your higher self planned for you to be faced with the truth of your childhood pain so you can finally heal it! It will never be healed if you keep it all so deeply buried and protected. You are strong enough to look at it now! Finally! You can allow the unbearable pain to be looked at and voiced and released. Your powerful soul has been waiting patiently for your courage to admit how badly you were wounded. It may have been worse than you thought. I know, for me, it was much worse than I thought it was, but now it’s all been seen and it is so FREEING!
Please leave a comment if you relate to the subject here today. Your voice will help others who are not yet ready to speak about their pain. I’ll be writing about more raw truth about childhood pain! Yeah I’m fired up like the Phoenix rising from the ashes–determined to be my highest self and overcome any fears that stand in the way of my dreams and my true purpose! I love connecting with all of you who read or follow this blog! You make the world a better place and give me hope to keep sharing my healing journey!
Sending hugs and comforting wishes to all who are on a healing journey,