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For HSPs–Journaling Tips For Deep Spiritual Healing

By Roxanne on | 2 Comments

Hello Highly Sensitive Souls (HSPs) , Lightworkers, Empaths, Introverts, Earth Angels, and Starseeds,

I hope you are doing well and thriving! Like me you may be striving for balance and healthiness in your life as you acknowledge your sensitivities, are being very gentle with yourself, and healing past traumas. It’s a lot for us sensitives to find balance and feel grounded while at the same time wanting to strive ahead in pursuit of joy and inner peace and our true purpose in life! Then stuff comes up in life to force us to find our inner strength! I am finding mine. I am in a state of transformation. Perhaps you can relate. It’s an extra tough time right now because we also have to shield ourselves from watching the news!–we peek at it at times and sometimes it’s too much and we get knocked off our center. I’ll be sharing some of my practices of how I keep in a healing state. I’ve slowed down the pace of my life and I find I operate so much better in slow gear. Slow gear is great for resting, deep healing, and recovery. This is essential for highly sensitive people (HSPs). And in slow gear you can tune into your own intuitive guidance and feel the support of your guides and angels.

I myself am often in pursuit of comforting guidance and I find that I have a habit of seeking it out from other lightworkers on YouTube and other platforms only to realize I am able to comfort myself best in my journaling and by going within. I discovered that I am looking for “ME”–I am a natural born comforter–it’s part of my true purpose. In those times, I realize that I’ve become disconnected from my true self when I am looking externally for comfort. Within is where the inner peace is. It took me a long time to figure it out but thank goodness I’ve really got it now. Turning to my journal to write or to read it really helps me to find the calm within–my inner nurturer.

Being creative and expressing my voice in my journal is my bridge to healing my past patterns and finding self-compassion. When you learn self-compassion it helps you finally learn how to deeply rest. When you get some deep rest then you are helping heal your foundation (root chakra) so you have a strong base from which to give to yourself and to others. There’s other ways too to find balance–seeking stillness in nature, meditation, and listening to soothing music etc. but I’d like to focus today on the healing power of writing and journaling.

There’s a very unique and personal healing poetry that comes out of me at my most creative times and I’ve shared some of it here on this blog. It is/was never my intention to share it with anyone else besides myself when I start writing it–if I had that intention I could never write it. But I always feel healed by the end and as if I worked through a difficult layer of stuck emotion when I write my poetry. When I first started, I had a great deal of shame come up after I wrote a poem. Then I saw a pattern emerge–the more shame that surfaced to be released, the more healing the poem (or song), and more feedback from others that my poetry helped them too. So the very thing we may feel shame about sharing may actually be part of our true purpose to help others. (See some of my past poems here on this blog on this page: HEALING WRITINGS / POEMS OF HOPE AND HEALING 🙏🏽✍️✨). When in doubt go ahead and share your creative work! You’ve got nothing to lose and you might inspire or help someone else!

As I go through chemotherapy (see my previous post), I have struggled with “chemo brain” and difficulty organizing my thoughts–but now that I am in the last third of the treatment plan I find I feel that I am over the hump and looking forward to healthier times! A spark of creativity is coming back amidst the side effects from the harsh chemicals which is quite a surprise to me. I had been unable to write in this blog all through the mold toxicity and cancer diagnosis. But as I deeply process this “wake up call” to live even more as my authentic self I am feeling stronger than ever. Facing fear of death really forced me to get clarity about exactly who I am and how I want to live. I thought it wouldn’t happen until after chemo was over but it was the intense bone pain from the treatment for 10 days in a row that forced me to get real and find deep answers from within. I found as I was in intense pain I was also hyper focused on being grateful for the times I have had and will have no more pain in my body. I found myself saying, “when this pain finally lifts I am going to do this and this and this!” Clarity! I didn’t despair. I didn’t have fear. I know it’s temporary. A strong inner me came forth!

The reason I chose to go through chemo is to make doubly sure that all remaining abnormal cells in my body don’t come back in the form of cancer. My immune system is taking a hit but I am doing many holistic things to boost my immune system and detox during this process. Pain is a teacher–the severe bone pain I experienced turned out to be a great gift that pushed my higher self forward. As the pain recedes finally I am taking action on the promises I made to myself. I am writing on this blog and writing songs and poetry when I am painfree as a priority with my best energy of the morning. I’m still resting and I’m still taking it slow but it feels so good to express myself now that I have clarity. Yay!

I’m very excited again about the future and my role of being a comfort to other highly sensitive souls trying to navigate our harsh world. I had healed the mold illness by the time I had surgery to remove the ovarian cyst, I will write about how I did that at a later time. So after the surgery I was thrilled when I had my creative mojo back and wrote a song called. “I Don’t Want To Go To Chemo”. Lol! It was fun to write and fun to sing and helped me cope with losing my hair! I look forward to sharing it–It will take some work to be ready to share it so that will have to wait as well. I will write about my chemo experience and what I learned and how I cope at some other later time as too. I believe rest and recovery is even more important for HSPs than for other types of people. People who aren’t highly sensitive are the ones making videos while they are going through trauma–don’t compare yourself to these extroverts or high energy people. If you resonate with my blog then your gifts are probably more subtle and often require a slow gear and recovery time before you can hear your guidance to how to shine your light. Journaling is especially important for HSPs so that we can be listening inward for our guidance that can be more easily discovered through an automatic writing process of being open to hear spiritual messages.

If you are also on a cancer journey I want to share two great resources for lightworkers wanting hope for healing. Anita Moorjani has helped me so much! She is an amazing woman who not only beat end stage cancer after her near death experience but thrives as a beacon of light to teach others what she learned. Her book Dying to Be Me is wonderful as well as her many interviews on YouTube about her experience and her message of healing. l also loved the book Cancer Is a Gift by Lawrence Doochin. It is a great positive read that is safe to read and hopeful unlike many stories and videos and well meaning cancer survivors who tell their horror stories which can induce fear in the listener. Shielding myself from others’ stories of chemotherapy and recurrances is really helping me focus on stay focused on the positive and manifesting a healthy body that is in flow with positive energy. It’s impossible to stay positive all the time but I have learned that if I keep flowing with the feelings as they come up–writing them out or crying them out or hitting a mattress–whatever is needed, then they flow right out of me to be released and I am back to a centered, grounded state again.

It’s not always easy and the important thing is to constantly forgive yourself for every little thing and be kind and very gentle to yourself. You are doing the best you can. My ability to channel and hear my guides and angels comes and goes in this harsh process of chemo, but when I do hear them they consistently remind me to be gentle on myself just when I forget to and start trying too hard to do all the right things. It’s the perfect message to receive at the perfect time. Then I take deep breaths and stop stressing, relax my shoulders, and seek stillness and rest my body and mind. I close my eyes and send white healing light to all my chakras and to certain areas where I may have pain, and I send love and healing light to all of the cells of my body and say, like Louise Hay has taught us, “I am perfectly healthy”. “I am safe.”

I don’t claim to have all the answers. I’ve come to understand that we have planned exit points in our soul plan and our death date is already decided. But I also know that some of us lightworkers may be going through severe illnesses to force us to shine our lights, learn how powerful we are, overcome fear, heal ourselves, and then help others to heal from cancer or other serious ailments with all that we learned in the process. I have many helpers and supports in this journey. I visit psychics and energy healers, and I have heart centered integrative medicine doctors and functional medicine doctors, and naturopathic doctors that I visit as I am guided and trusting my intuition.

I am still in the middle of this healing journey with 2 more chemo treatments to go. But I am thrilled to be having the clarity from my brain fog to write to you all today. I am careful not to say, “oh I have chemo brain” over and over, instead I say “my brain is working perfectly” over and over and now it seems to be trending in that direction. Words we speak to ourselves are powerful. If you haven’t heard of Louise Hay I highly recommend her book “You Can Heal Your LIfe”. I’ve been studying it for over 25 years and I have used it’s methods in my reiki healing practice with clients and now it’s especially coming in handy. So you might be say, why did you get sick with cancer then, if you’ve been this holistic healer for so long? It’s because I moved into a house with hidden mold in the attic and under the showers. It took me 1 and 1/2 years of slowy disappearing and losing my gifts and abilities to reach out to a functional medicine doctor who discovered I had 5 times over the threshold of mold toxicity in my body. Most doctors don’t know about mold illness–this particular doctor had overcome mold illness himself and knew just the tests to give me and which professionals to test my home. Thank you spirit guides and angels for guiding me to him. (There have been so many miracles like that along the way.) I believe that stress of being so ill with the mold toxicity that I couldn’t do the work I loved while at the same time having to lose many treasured belongings and move into a hotel for months while my entire house was remediated and renovated–that required so many difficult decisions when my brain was really struggling from the mold–my stress was through the roof for months.

That’s when the cancer started for me –extreme stress circumstances over months. I wasn’t able to do any of the things that helped me flow and thrive and be happy. Mold illness is worse than having chemo in my experience and my opinion. Until you remove yourself from mold and get the proper treatment plan you will continue to be ill. I was unable to flow or balance my chakras and express myself with creative writing for a very long time. My sacral chakra, the creativity center of the body, was stuck with negative energy–I had stopped being able to write songs and poetry and I lost my true voice and my spark.

In my case I believe that my cancer diagnosis, caught early and treated with both traditional and alternative medicine, healthy diet, and living with purpose and creativity, can be eradicated. I believe the surgery I went through got all of the cancer out. My cancer marker blood test was back to normal even before I started chemo and this helped me stay positive. But even if it was later stage I would have continued to be positive that I can heal it. Don’t let anyone or anything you read allow you to lose hope. If it happens keep coming back to the positive hopeful information. Hope is so important to shift from fear to the healing life force energy of love and light from heaven. I believe we each have the power within us to heal ourselves until it’s our time to return home. It is my hope that this blog post restores your hope for a long a healthy life full of vitality and purpose. Please leave a comment and share your story. It will help others to know they are not alone.

Here’s a very personal private poem that I wrote in my journal during the beginning stages of chemo. After I wrote it I felt so much better and would read it often to comfort myself. I recommend you trying to write this kind of stream of consciousness journaling–it doesn’t have to rhyme. Just be open to listening to your higher self and assist in the self-expression with a pen and paper in hand.

Chemo Poem

This is a predicament

Quite out of my control 

Nausea and bone pain

It really takes a toll

Different than anything

I have been dealt before

Making me stronger?

What is all this for?

Hard to wrap my head around

Experience to help others?

Going through it makes sense

To gain compassion for my brothers

I used to have fear of cancer

And judgement and avoidance 

Now I see it is energy

To make a point to learn this

Life is to be lived in fearlessness

Taking risks with all of our gifts

Helping others with compassion

Giving hope to give a lift

It will help with all the judgement

Of not fitting in

A little too Woo Woo?

No I’m glad to begin

Just gotta be myself

Not care what others think

If I can help one person

And help their fear to shrink

Then that is a wonderful

Future to create

Shine my light and spread the hope

As LOVE accumulates.

Copyright © 2025 Roxanne E. Smith

Sending you all comfort and healing love and light,

Roxanne 💖

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On Overcoming Self-doubt: The Story Behind My Songs of Hope and Healing

By Roxanne on | 7 Comments

Hi everyone. I believe there are many, many highly sensitive people (HSPs) out there that are gifted in so many areas but are suffering from self-doubt from their wounds from childhood and by being misunderstood in our society in general.  I want to tell you about how I came to be able to write songs and share them with you in the hopes that this will be helpful or inspire you in some way.  My being able to write songs is a story about overcoming self-doubt and finding and expressing my true self.  It was my songs that helped me uncover the truth of who I really am and what happened to me in my childhood.  The ability to write and sing these songs gave me a connection to something spiritual so that I learned to love myself and stop doubting the gifts and feelings that were within me.   Writing these songs turned me into a believer–and I now know I am loved and supported by the universe and I became more spiritual and drawn to reading more about what that means. 

I feel there is something in the words and melodies of most of my songs that came from something bigger than myself–I was just the channel.  I want to inspire, encourage and empower others who are in emotional pain and afraid to show who they really are.  I believe those highly sensitive souls are voices that are needed in our society and they are sensitive for a reason.  They have a connection to something bigger than themselves that they do not realize and don’t dare show to others because they don’t want to be hurt anymore–so they are hiding.  I understand this hiding.

The songs were an instrument in me telling my truth–and gaining the strength to stand up and assert my self and my true voice. These songs were instrumental in my gaining strength and energy and learning finally that there are people who we must avoid while we are healing and people of light and love that are safe to go towards. Being highly sensitive is a gift!  And I am grateful and honored to be one of those people.  I  feel blessed in this gift I have been given and I now have the positive energy to give to and love others only by loving my self first.  That is what these songs have done for me.  Here is my story:

In 2004 I started writing songs.  I had been writing  poems in a journal since I was 14.  At that time, I was told that things I wrote were crazy but I kept writing anyway because it made me feel better.  At that time I trusted others more than I trusted myself and so when I was criticized, ignored, and shamed for my singing too it broke my heart and I gave up on my dream to sing.  But I was compelled to sing and write anyway–in secret and in private. I dreamed of being a singer like Linda Rondstadt and sang in my bedroom to all of her albums.  I started learning the guitar at 17. (A boyfriend bought it for me–not my parents.)  I slowly started learning to play chords to my favorite songs. These were songs by Carole King, James Taylor, Carly Simon, and Linda Ronstadt. (Later on it was songs by Bonnie Raitt and Sheryl Crow).  I sang in the choir in high school and college and got great praise but I didn’t believe it. My college voice teacher told me I had the best voice in the whole school of music.  But my fear felt too big to overcome so I refused to do any solos–I had stagefright and by graduation I gave up on my dream.

But about once a month something in me would make me sing and play the guitar.  I would sing and play my favorite songs for hours for only my self or sometimes for my husband and kids and then put it away for another month.  They liked my singing–but I was sure that I wasn’t as good as I thought I was in my heart.  I did that for many, many years.   Meanwhile,  I heard about a book called The Artist’s Way by Julia Cameron.  I  began writing 3 pages a day of free writing called Morning Pages to unblock creativity. (Ellen Degeneres has mentioned on her show that she also does this). Something started happening to me–I was finding out who I was and how I really felt about things.  More good writing and poetry started coming out of me–I was feeling more confident in myself and happier.

My children were having big successes in singing at school.  I had been careful not to push them in any direction but the ones of their own choosing.  To my surprise they both were drawn to singing in their own way.  My eldest became a soloist in high school and eventually a lead singer in a cover band in college.  My 2nd child was successful in acting and sang beautifully in solos in musical theatre productions at school.  They had no stagefright at all!  I was so proud of them and proud of myself for raising children with no stagefright!   I would often joke,” I can die now”,  but it made me realize how important singing was to me but I was still paralyzed in fear that my voice was not good enough for others to hear.  I knew this was irrational and started singing more often but there was still so much doubt in my mind.  It was exhausting to try and easier to just not try to sing for others.  I sang more often but still just kept it to myself.

When my eldest child went off to college and my husband started traveling more throughout the week I had more time to myself to recharge and suddenly one day I was inspired to put music to the poem I was writing in my journal.  I remember a melody came to me and it seemed as a gift from above to go with these words I was writing.  Not until after I was done writing it (long hand), with this melody in my head, did I pick up the guitar to try to play it and miraculously it fit perfectly with the few chords I knew well.  I recorded it on a tape recorder and, during a rare and brave moment, I dared to show it to my other child’s voice teacher who really liked it and said “you are a folk singer/songwriter” and also that he was jealous because he had a masters in music and couldn’t write any songs. This first song was entitled I’ll Believe and it felt like this song may have been a gift from above and that I had just been open to receive it and put it all together.  After that, songs just started pouring out of me and I always put the date on every song I write because it is important to me to acknowledge when it was given to me. 

Not only that, each song was prompted by an emotional state and a painful learning experience.  Sometimes I would feel a lot of shame after the song was complete because I dared to pour out my truth.  I soon realized that my best songs were the ones I felt the most shame about initially.  I knew this shame was not the truth. Then I would make myself listen to a tape of my recorded songs when I wasn’t feeling good about them or myself.  Every time I listened, I was surprised that I had written these songs and they changed my mood from feeling lost and numb to finding myself and finding my joy in life again for that day. It was a very healing experience as I saw myself getting more and more confident in expressing my “voice” in more ways than one.  I realized that because of the internalized shame from my childhood, I was beating myself up all the time and it was up to me to start believing in myself and to stop believing the inner critic inside my head.  It wasn’t true.  I was actually good.  How many other things I believed about myself also were not really true?   I was finding my voice as a person as well and speaking up for myself and standing up for myself in all areas of my life.

So it is the lyrics and the music that I feel helped me to find myself and I hope that they will be a source of hope and healing to you as well. Right now, I have written about 40 songs.  20 of them that I am releasing the lyrics to you I call my “Songs of Hope and Healing”.  And that is the inspiration for the name of this website.    Please let me know either by comment or by email if there are lyrics that speak to you.

15 to 20 % of us are Highly Sensitive People (HSPs).  We are a valuable and essential resource to our planet!  Overcoming self-doubt and finding our voice IS our true purpose in life.  Find the courage to trust that those gifts you were given are meant to be expressed and will be helpful to others by inspiring them to find their gifts as well. The desires deep in your heart are the path to finding your true purpose in life.  You can overcome your self-doubt! You are sensitive for a reason!

Thank you to my readers.  I have been getting emails and it’s great to know that I am reaching you and that what I am doing is helping.

With love, Roxanne

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