Hello Everyone! Many sensitive, and empathic souls and clients are having childhood wounds arise to the surface to be healed. It can be a very painful experience. It’s also an opportunity to heal and become stronger. I hope this poem I wrote recently is helpful, uplifting, and supportive. If you resonate, please leave a comment. Welcome!
YOU WERE NEVER LOVED, MY DEAR (Healing Shame From Childhood Wounds) By Roxanne Elaine Smith
When you had a narcissistic mom
Where’s the next hit coming from
Not a hit with fist or hand
But words and eyes that punch and land
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Devastating to your soul
Nothing solid to take hold
No mirror to see your worth
No smiles and comfort so you search
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You search for reasons, blame yourself
Shame and doubt instead of stealth
It robs you of the truth and time
You were sweet and so sublime
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You were shining, curious love
Sent to earth from up above
But chose the hardest path to start
A childhood starved from feeling part
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Everywhere you reached was blocked
So you gave up and heart was locked
Trust too much or not enough
Attracting all similar stuff
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Until you realize the pattern here
You were never loved, my dear
Start from scratch and loving you
Oh it is so hard to do
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At first because the triggers are
Relieving painful trauma jars
Shocking you right to your core
“How did I survive Oh Lord”
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You didn’t! No you gave up YOU
And turned into a mask not true
Obedient and needy so
People-please and perfection oh
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Trying oh so many things
Until your true voice finally sings
But shame comes up with every truth
The pattern hidden from your youth
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Every time you were you, you were shamed
Have to get YOU back again
Ignore the shame and keep on moving
Rise above shame and keep on grooving
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Yell at shame, you are not mine
Dance out shame, I am just fine
Shame keeps coming every time
Hiding doesn’t heal the crime
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Only way is to see the child
Inside the parents who went wild
Spilling out their pain on you
Everything it was not true
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You were perfect whole and right
Their fear and anguish like a blight
They felt safe because of you
Your light it was so bright it’s true
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Not fair of course you deserved the world
You knew that you could heal and unfurl
Figure it all out you would
And love yourself just as you should
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And finally learn strong boundaries
And attract those loving hercules
Those strong people, inner strength
Like you they’ve been put up to the brink
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The death of soul and now awake
They search for tribes to quell and quake
Masterful and sensitive
They forgive and give and give and give
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And you know you are one of them
And renewed hope on journey stems
Trying listening within
Trusting that love is what went dim
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Self compassion is your chore
As shame returns with each great score
Reducing size or is it growing
Heal emotions and new knowing
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Center, grounding, peace of mind
Solid forming, still maligned
Defensiveness and anger flare
But forgiving quicker in thin air
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Believing in the moment’s peace
That’s the truth not all the fleece
Still confusing childhood wounds
Where’s the love-so many moods
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Why the deep and painful purge
Feel relief when follow urge
Writing helps you flow it out
The truth is innocence about
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All of it you chose but why
More than you can fathom, sigh
Others seem to simply thrive
Private hell they do deny
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Good to have access to love
Reach for heaven up above
But also know you are whole and kind
Lovely you, you shine, shine, shine
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Then loved ones blame—it all comes back
Another painful self attack
Oh the grief you must allow
The child must cry it out oh wow
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Will the tears they ever stop
When your happy bubble popped
Self-reliant muscle test
You are getting strongest yet
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See yourself that child hugged
Held and cherished sweetest mug
Smiles and happy to see you
Healing all that you’ve been through
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It’s okay to cry a lot
Over things that most forgot
Disappointment to your core
Life goes on with all the sores
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Want them all to go away
Triggers say hello today
Do not put it all on you!
Bask in love all the day through
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When you find a sea of pain
That is someone else’s train
Let them drive on their own track
Do not let them take a snack
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Send them love and move along
You know how you are so strong
You do so much for others
Time to be your own best mother
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Nurture, comfort, love your soul
You are here to Rock n Roll
Everything is now alright
You are purely Love and Light
Original Poem © Roxanne E. Smith
With deep caring, comfort, and compassion,
Roxanne 😇💖✨
P.S. See more healing poems and writings here
Hope and Healing Haven 
Mine was a narcissistic father but still relates 😊
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JR, Thank you for sharing that and for commenting. Sending you warm wishes and understanding! 😊✨
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It’s a long and challenging journey for sure, but feeling and acknowledging the progress makes it all worth it! We are such strong souls! Thank you for your beautiful poem. Your writing always resonates for me. Love to all on this path. Sue❤️🦋🐬💫
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Sue, Thanks for your lovely comment and for sharing! Yes we are stronger than we know– Progress is being made when we get clarity about the truth of who we are. Good point! Thanks you for the kind words too. Turning pain into creative art is my thing right now and I want to encourage it to all readers here as a healing tool–I never intend to share it at the time… and that is the key really. 🤔 With love and gratefulness to you and all, Roxanne 😇🦋💖✨
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